wow! now as I look back...damn. do I feel like a star now. I feel like yeah there is something great to live for...and that thing is Todd. I don't know what is going to happen from here, but I am hoping its something special. I think what we have now is special. Last night, not only was I shocked and amazed and loved, but I really felt alive... (translation) Wow! Todd has actually noticed me! finally! man I love this kid. he wants to kiss me **gasp**...damn! I have got to change! maybe something might happen this time...and I hope it does. yeah I am happy just being friends, but if he wants to be more then I say HELL YES!!! I loved last night, thanks to him. and not only that, but I love him to.