Mixed selection of moods today. Some lonely, some disappointed, some anger, much anticipation, and finally fear. Yet another friend has let me down. So many people I care about do things to me I would never do to them. I guess it makes me appreciate the few true friends I have. Such is life I suppose. We all make mistakes. Happy new year. I've never really made resolutions. Maybe I should start. I resolve to have realistic expectations of my friends. Not everyone has the same beliefs as me. I also resolve not to let it get to me when I am let down. All I can do is be there for the ones I care about, I can't control if they return the favor. Soon I will be in London. Escape from this life for awhile and I will appreciate it again.