i wish i could just disappear for a while maybe then when i could back something good can happen. i thought i could handle it today but i believe i was wrong. maybe it will change tomorrow i just kno its gonna take tons and tons of time to be where i need to be i wish i was magical but then i would feel bad for my spells so then again i kinda dont i just want it to work and my way but lifes a bitch and im just gonna have to WAIT!