hi peoples! sittin here at my house. Not really doing much of anything besides being completly cranky. My mom went to the emergency room about 15mins ago. that ought to be interesting outcome! I am so totally and completly sick of it here it isnt even funny! Seriously tho! Because like I used to live with my dad and I thought it was like terrible down there because when I came up here everything was so fun. But then I moved up here and everything changed. Now, I never have any fun. It is always me not getting along with people in my house. People in my house seem to not even care anymore. It seems like they really couldnt care any less if I was here or not. So now I really dont care iether. I went down to my dads house this weekend and I wish that I was still there. Because like everyone down there is like me. Noone down there hates people just because they can. I cant even say that about people where I live. Because MOST of the people where I live are a bunch of idiots that are self-centered and they only care about themselves. But anyways, when my dad met my mom today to drop me off I got out of my stepmoms car and I was like - maybe I will come back down here for the summer and get a job. And my dad was like - yeah, you should come back down to our area where people actually accept you for who you are - and he is right. People up here expect me to be someone Im not. I just have to slap on a happy face all the time. People in school think that everyone should just be happy all the time. And GOD FORBID that you have a bad day because then you turn into someone that is always mean or whatever. And people in my house are even worse. I cant even cry in my house. Because when I am really upset and I cry, I get yelled at and I get told that I have no reson to be crying. How do they know if I have a reason to be crying because they NEVER care enough to even ask. And when I do cry infront of them - I get a bunch of attitude and everything. So I usually go into the bathroom and wash my face everytime I want to cry because that is the only way I can let out the tears and noone will notice. MOST people up her ejust flat out don't understand. They really dont. I cant wait until this summer - I really cant! Well - since noone cares I dont see why I should keep writing - so I am just going to stop. Courtney*