Haha i'm afriad to turn on the radio. I'm so glad i took this day off. As i said earlier, i washed clothes. I'm happy that i got all them done. So you guys should be proud, i ate both lunch and dinner today. It wasnt much, just half of a lunchable and a sloppy joe, but it was something. And i'm happy to say i havn't shed a single tear today. So after i finished clothes, i spent a long time online/ on the phone with lacie. Talking about.....things. Then i was in the process of researching some stuff, which at the time seemed to help a helpless situation, but i ultimatly failed. Again. But i'm still not crying. So then i read a bunch of random stories on fictionpress. Sent LJ an email. Again, pointless. Layed around. I dont rele remember if i watched tv, i dont think i did. Really all i did was research, read, and lay around. So now im stuck. But i wont say why. But i have decided, i'm letting everything go. Obviously no one cares if it gets fixed or not, so why should i. I'm sick of crying, sick of trying. Not just with one thing. But everything. I feel an appointment with Dr. Cole coming on. I need to talk about things oh. and heather, i have a poster thing. i just need to print it out. P.S. Don't hate me. I'm only trying to help you.