current mood: i dont even really kno well i've found out whats wrong with me, this really sux, but atleast its clarity i have a mental disorder Borderline Personality Disorder so thats why i randomly freak out over furtually nothing.. heh.. great.. i really am a freak.. o well thats life, atleast i have prolly the strongest, most amazing person by my side, i dunno how shes taken all this, cause she really hasn't had too thanks meaghan:), one day this will be gone, and i'll pay you back, dont worry, it'll be alright as for now i dunno ugh.. this sux