Not that any of you care, but I have a new (well not really new) diary. Ihavenoname.
That's it.
Don't ask why I made it.
I have no idea.
If you care at allllllll you'll add me! :)
around 20 food court gummies.
I think im gonna be sick. hahah I want another one! lol
COMMENTS!!!! LEAVE THEEEEM
...i'm just a waste of time.
Buried Alive
[intro]
i speak in verses
prophecies & curses
....i hate my life.
[verse]
no miracle is coming ....[hate you]
it's just a hole
nothing's wrong with you
must maintain control
everyone's asking questions
no place is safe
i'll forfeit resurrection
to escape the pain
... i hate my life.
[chorus]
I HATE MY LIFE.
[verse]
i speak in verses
prophecies & curses
this storm of thorns is growing ....[hate me]
there's no end in sight
chaos claws my jaw
& incites a mental riot
i'm in the mouth of madness
with a tongue of poetry
i ate the spine of Atlas
now the world is crushing me
.... i hate my life.
[chorus]
I HATE MY LIFE.
[outro]
BURIED ALIVE BEHIND ENEMY LINES
SURROGATE CHILD FOR THE SINS OF ALL MANKIND
HATE!!
BURIED ALIVE BEHIND ENEMY LINES
[buried alive, buried alive]
-otep
You cannot kill what you did not create-slPnt
Nein-Otep
MY PAIN, MY PRIDE
THESE SCARS ARE MINE
MY PAIN, MY PRIDE
THESE SCARS ARE MINE
i will tell you a story,
that's never been told
i will tell you a secret,
5 lifetimes old ...
my life has been a prison,
a labyrinth built beneath the mountain of Tragedy.
i'm a stain on the cloth.
i'm just an after-thought.
but i
would die
for this ....
but through the veins of decay
i'll remain to betray
to live like Caesar.
to die like Jesus.
to build my own religion,
no gods, no laws
to celebrate pain
forsaken & ashamed
to watch them all,
crawl beneath us ...
on this bed of nails & regret
dying of fevers, betrayal, & sweat
I CRY ...
[chorus]
my organs are rotting,
my enemies are plotting ...
I AM MADE OF PAGES
PARAGRAPHS & INSPIRATIONS
PAPER GIRL, BURN THE WORLD,
I PASS THE FLAME TO YOU!!
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER MAYHEM
HURT HER HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
FUCK HER
SLAY THEM!!
[verse]
my pain, my pride
these scars are mine
my pain .....
MY MISERY HAS BEEN FORMULATED
INTO AN EQUATION OF NIEN
MY SANITY WROTE
A SUICIDE NOTE
BUT ONE OF US IS ILLITERATE
AND THE OTHER ... IS BLIND
MY 1st ACT OF TREASON
WAS PICKING UP A PEN
MY 1st ACT OF LOVE
WAS FINDING MYSELF AGAIN
THE HARDEST THING TO DO
WAS STANDING UP TO YOU
NOW I'M OFF MY KNEES
NOW YOU'RE BEGGING ME "PLEASE"
I'M THE WOUND & THE WEAPON
THE FRACTURE & THE FIST
[chorus]
my organs are rotting,
my enemies are plotting ...
I AM MADE OF PAGES
PARAGRAPHS & INSPIRATIONS
PAPER GIRL, BURN THE WORLD,
I PASS THE FLAME TO YOU!!
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER MAYHEM
HURT HER HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
FUCK HER
SLAY THEM!!
[outro]
THAT STABBING IN YOUR HEART,
THAT BLACK HOLE IN YOUR SOUL,
SLOWLY RIPPING YOU APART .... THAT'S ME!!!
THAT'S ME!!!
SO LET IT BE WRITTEN,
SO LET IT BE DONE!
THE BRIGHTER THEY SHINE,
THE DARKER WE BECOME!!
VAE VICTUS!
ABOMINATION!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
I got another otep cd and got 6 gauges for my ears...bloody hell did they hurt, and I wanted to skip the 6s and go to 4s...yea right!
aah I do not want to go to school tomorrow. BlechNess!
I think im going to chage my diary around again...but for now im way too lazy and tired lol
my ears are in alot of pain though...aaack I put them in while watching the evil dead. ahah.....its a sick and twisted 80's movie. a woman gets raped by a tree. Its really quite nasty lol
also saw elizabethtown. ...wow...aha it really was a great movie, but im sure not many people will appreciate it. Its definately not your normal "chick flick" its actually...really twisted. Its so hillarious though. well, im off to read for a while and then go to beeed.
jkhsdkfjhskdgh guhkdjghdkfgh I AM SO COOL! yesssssssss
aaah Im so tired.
weee.
im gonna get something to eat...mmm...food.
....yea..
byeness.
my confession- otep.
thats how I feel right now.
It feels like im being torn apart. literally.
gah!
....i need help....im so stupid.
I need to find someone out there who is going through the same stuff to talk to....
gaaaaah......my god, im so dumb
"My Confession" -otep
... my confession
because i'm diluted
&
perfectly flawed
i shall
live by passion
&
not by law
and i'm
insecure ...
i need aggression
to
feed the spiders
of perception
and i'm
supposed to be strong
& have
all the answers
a
cannibal
in the
new church of cancer
but i'm
nothing special
i'm not unique
i have
many secrets
& i
eat the weak
and i'm
at an end
i'm at an end .....
and there's ...
NO WAY OUT!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
..... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me
..... this is my escape
II.
and i
think about it
all the time
i'm
volatile
&
afraid to cry
but i'm
still not comfortable
in my skin
and the
anesthetics slowly
wearing thin
& i
need to talk to
someone new
i need a different
latitude
& i'm
in this void
all alone!
feeling needy
... hungry to grow
but i'm
suffocating
-- can't come down
and .... no ....
THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
.... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me!
.... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!
--- all i see is sadness
all i see is sadness ....
what's left?
-- this will teach them.
this will teach them,
......you've got to......
push.
Push.
PUSH....
YOUR WAY OUT!!!
FOLLOW ME!
FOLLOW ME!
THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!
........you are not alone
- this is where i hide my power
- this is where i become free
- this is where i take control
- and slowly choke your fantasies
- i want to know my day is coming
- see my enemies be punished
- shed my skin again
- this will be my best revenge!!
SHED MY SKIN AGAIN
THIS WILL BE MY BEST REVENGE!
...This is like the story of my life.
nothing more to say. its an amazing song.
This song is so amazing. I love it...so much :-P
uumm....yea...I dont really know what to say. today was good, got out of school at one, Im so tired though. Prolly will go to sleep semi- earliy.
I dont have much homework this weekend which is a very exciting thing for me :-)
anyway, im out, Im gonna go play guitar for a while
peace out homies!
I LOVE ALL OF YOU...Because....well...I dont know. You are all sluts! wait...no...yes..? YESSS!!!!!
...... I have nothing to say, just felt like making a new entry. woot woot. go me.
someone leave me a damn comment!
....please? =(
no comments....people hate me :-(
Just watched Law and Order:SVU....best show ever might I add, but yea, this shows creep factor was tripled....twas very creepy. anyway, I must be off now, sleep is very appealing right now, good night everyone and sweet dreams.