Well, I was with Brad all day today ; he took me to dinner around 7 It was wonderful I'm a weak person, yes, but I somehow felt stronger then ever today... IT was simply amazing I spent the whole day with the man I love and want to spend the rest of my life with, its not gonna happen though -- never ever ever *dies* took a nap, smoked, made love, ate - fell in love again gaddamnit - why am i such a complete idiot... *tries to drown self in a bucket of water*