I am a confused little child. And with being so, I depend highly on.. horoscopes and such. the onces I was reading on virtualkiss.com ((leo and capricorn)) seem to coinside greatly, but then again, that is just my imagination. I am so very confused. What if's run through my head. I may screw up. Things may go terribly wrong. But I hope I still have myself in the end. You never know what will go on. I hope I can move in with him. I hope I do not get in major shit for calling him tonight. I don't really care, anymore. My mom can die. Keeping me from my friends, and the people I need most. personally, I hope she dies in two years, even though she will most likely skip over me in two years. Haha. You know what is quite funny? Mike's mutti is exactly like mine! With name, and demeanor and everything. It makes me laugh. Fuck-eddy-fuck-fuck. I am such a lonely child, I need to think of a good.. story.. to cover up for my phoning him. I wonder what she will do to me???? Take away the computer, and the phone in my room, no doubt. hmm, maybe.. she will make me pay for it??? I do not know. I will just say I have no money.. "What happened to that 50 dollars??!" "Uh, I don't remember where I put it? I put it some where for safe keeping.." Pah. Fucking mom. SHE CANNOT DO THIS!!!!! wait. for now, she can. Fuck I do not care. He is mine, and I hope forever will be. [[Hey, did yah hear that Lisa?? I have gone back to girly fanatises. Oui?]] But. I will cry, if she yells at me. And I will cry if she takes away the computer. And I will cry, if he is here in August, and i cannot see him. I will cry so much, if the last one is true. Pah, but I need a good plan. And I have half of one, that is if Shea, is in Edmonton.. Bah. or should I just say that I am going to hang out with Mike. "Who is 'MIKE'" -"He's Morgan's friend from fort McMurray." "NO YOU CANNOT HE IS ONE OF THOSE POT SMOKING SEX CRAZED LOONIES I TELL YOU" -"I HATE YOU!!! YOU CANT JUST NOT LET ME SEE HIM!!!!!!" That is basically how it would go. In laymans terms. damnit. I need to see this kid. grrrrrRRRR!