the past pushes away the current mood selected as i am in a state of constant and consitent change now. i dont know if it makes sense to any one ever looking in at what i have found out about myself, but since it does not matter that way i will turn every which way and the double back when i have times to catch my breath and see what is behind me. oh well now is just as well if not better than and so much is kin to mentioning all the credits i have to show. now however is not gold it actually is its just to pure to have sustained any shape without me first modling it like clay. no i wont mention those bands you love that are friends of mine. go away now please