what is so strange is that i cant seem to settle my stomach right now. i dont know how it is that things came to be this way but i am not for sure that they really are. i want nothing more than to be able to say i know but i dont. watch the stars come watch them go for now. here is where i will be when they return. how long will i have to wait to see the results of now. knowing that things could go horribly arye(if any one knows how to spell that please let me know.). veracity is there is left to cling to but not in the since of the words used to describe it because i dont believe truth is stable enough to be trusted when it can be so eaily twisted.