but I need a little more than myself this time. recovery. The thoughts in my head don't provoke any emotions. I'm relying on my senses to convince myself I am not a zombie today. Bombard my taste buds with salty, bitter, sweet, sour. (you're just a glutton, flabby-thighs) I am slightly afraid of closing my eyes. - After the February blues, I crave immediate and fast change. And this transition season is just not doing it for me. I am not sad, angry or unhappy. just very impatient, and it is causing panic, because this waiting process has left me emotionless. - i am feeling well. 40 mg of cyclobenzaprine and some good hash, no physical or mental tension.