Yesterday the worst thing in the world that could ever happen....happened. I don't know if I wrote about a guy named Kevin in my past entries but I've fell in love with him the second I saw him. There was just something about him....I don't know what it was but it drew me to him. When I met him it was 2 months till I turned 13 and he was 19....I know there's an age difference but I loved him more then any one in the world. I would have given anything for him. I would give my life for him. Well after I got sent off to San-Diego he moved to Florida. I wished every day that he'd come back one day. Every birthday wish, every wish bone, every falling star, I wished for him to come back to me till this day I wished for that. I never talker talked to him after he moved cause I was going threw a extremely hard time back then and well he got mad about things....I hope that he forgave me though. I know it was love I still love him with all of my heart....I know theres a few years there but I can't stop my heart from loving him. But the bad news is that...He was murdered a year after he moved there by his psycho girlfriend. I've been in tears since I herd what happened to him. I don't know I guess that I always had hope that I'd find him some day and everything would be the same. Now he's gone and I guess all my wishing was wasted and there was never any chance of him coming back to me. I just with I had one more day with him so I could tell him everything I felt and that I wanted him to stay and I couldn't go on without him. I use to look on myspace for him hoping that I would find him...I never did. I just wish he wouldn't have moved.....I just wish I knew if he felt the same. He would say he loved me....but I wonder if it was the same love I was feeling. I don't know how I'm going to go on without him....I love him so much! I just want him to hold me in his arms and tell me everything will be ok. I guess I don't know anymore.