I guess lately things haven't been to great. But when Im with my friends every things perfectly fine. There pretty much the only thing keeping me going. Me and my dad always argue now....we always have but its gotten a lot worse lately. Well my friends Travis n Brad are probably getting a place some time soon sooo I might be able to move in with them if I can get emancipated so hopefully I can. Im failing all of my classes south sucks ass for sure! Im trying to get back in to my old school crater so hopefully that works out. I didnt go to school today though I was out till about one with Jeanette, Travis, Ricky, n Brad....and we saw some other people. It was fun.....I love chillin with them. I don't know where I'd be with out them there one of a kind and some of the greatest friends you could ever have. But yeaaa Im trying to unblock myspace from mah dads computer so im on here writing cause I can't. I dunno but it confuses me how I can like someone so much and start to get close to them but as soon as they start to get closer to me I always seem to push them away. I don't know why I do it....maybe its the fear of getting hurt again. I dont know....it confuses me...hopefully I'll figure it out before I push this guy away too. But I'm super tired though so I might go to sleep. Leave some comments if you want or if you wanna ask me any thing feel free.

I'm doin a lot better then I was a couple weeks ago. Im not friends with Audrey anymore I dunno she gets me in to trouble when if it was another one of my friends I wouldnt its just that she cant keep her mouth shut when we do stuff and it ends up gettin me in to a bunch of shit. But Its ok and everything I dont hate her Im ok with her its just that I dont want to be friends....its like if we were both at the same place I wouldnt care I wouldnt be mean or anything cause I dunno I dont hate her. But I've been talkin to mah friend Travis more...which is good I miss that kid. Im not going to school anymore I guess I dunno its a long story. I finally got to hang out with my friend Lea and I might hang out with Bri some time soon at least I hope I miss them. I've been partying a lot which is hella fun. When Travis comes to visit I think im goin to go party n shit with him too. But yeaa its kinda early and I cant sleep kinda sucks......well peace! *___Kt___*

Yesterday the worst thing in the world that could ever happen....happened. I don't know if I wrote about a guy named Kevin in my past entries but I've fell in love with him the second I saw him. There was just something about him....I don't know what it was but it drew me to him. When I met him it was 2 months till I turned 13 and he was 19....I know there's an age difference but I loved him more then any one in the world. I would have given anything for him. I would give my life for him. Well after I got sent off to San-Diego he moved to Florida. I wished every day that he'd come back one day. Every birthday wish, every wish bone, every falling star, I wished for him to come back to me till this day I wished for that. I never talker talked to him after he moved cause I was going threw a extremely hard time back then and well he got mad about things....I hope that he forgave me though. I know it was love I still love him with all of my heart....I know theres a few years there but I can't stop my heart from loving him. But the bad news is that...He was murdered a year after he moved there by his psycho girlfriend. I've been in tears since I herd what happened to him. I don't know I guess that I always had hope that I'd find him some day and everything would be the same. Now he's gone and I guess all my wishing was wasted and there was never any chance of him coming back to me. I just with I had one more day with him so I could tell him everything I felt and that I wanted him to stay and I couldn't go on without him. I use to look on myspace for him hoping that I would find him...I never did. I just wish he wouldn't have moved.....I just wish I knew if he felt the same. He would say he loved me....but I wonder if it was the same love I was feeling. I don't know how I'm going to go on without him....I love him so much! I just want him to hold me in his arms and tell me everything will be ok. I guess I don't know anymore.

I'm doin a lot better then I was a couple weeks ago. Im not friends with Audrey anymore I dunno she gets me in to trouble when if it was another one of my friends I wouldnt its just that she cant keep her mouth shut when we do stuff and it ends up gettin me in to a bunch of shit. But Its ok and everything I dont hate her Im ok with her its just that I dont want to be friends....its like if we were both at the same place I wouldnt care I wouldnt be mean or anything cause I dunno I dont hate her. But I've been talkin to mah friend Travis more...which is good I miss that kid. Im not going to school anymore I guess I dunno its a long story. I finally got to hang out with my friend Lea and I might hang out with Bri some time soon at least I hope I miss them. I've been partying a lot which is hella fun. When Travis comes to visit I think im goin to go party n shit with him too. But yeaa its kinda early and I cant sleep kinda sucks......well peace! *___Kt___*

Today Kinda sucked I stayed up really late and had to get up early cause my dad wanted me to help him with some shit and I was sick but to him that doesn't matter. I ended up having to talk to him and my step mom before I had to go work outside. They said I had a crappy attitude and that what I say doesnt matter and that I have to do everything they tell me to do. He brought out everything I've done wrong and to me that was kinda fucked up I couldn't just sit there and let him treat me like that so I stood up for myself. I've never gotten along with my dad I've hated him since I was 6 years old I use to cry when I had to go to visit him. I hate my step mom also she is mean and cruel and judges people before she even gets to know them she just thinks shes better then everyone. My sister had to move out of my dads house when I was younger and come live with me and my mom because my step mom Christine made me dad choose between her or my sister and he chose her. My dad has totally changed since he got with her when I was little. I know its wrong to hate people but I truly do hate them and I don't think I could ever forgive them.....I cant after everything they've done and the way they've treated me I could never forgive them. I know it makes me seem like a bitch but the truth is I am a quick forgive I rarely get mad ever and if I do get mad at a friend I'm over it in like a day. I dunno I know to some people it might seem wrong but if they only saw everything that goes on in this house they'd understand why I hate them and why I'm unable to forgive them. My friend Bailey that moved to Texas last year came in to town for like a month and I haven't even seen her yet and shes going back tomorrow morning I feel bad and it sucks that I can't go see her I think I'm going to just go to the airport tomorrow morning so I can say goodbye and see her at least once. It sucks I miss her like crazy and I didn't even get to see her.

I haven't been on this thing for perty much ever. But since things have been kinda I dunno fucked lately I guess...I figured Id just write it in here. I guess its easier to tell a stranger whats going on then the people you love sometimes. Well Pretty much whats been going on with me lately is I just got out of 9th grade in June. During the school year I got arrested for an MIP under consumption. Im not friends with most of the people I use to be friends with in middle school but I still go and talk to them sometimes. I made a lot of more friends and changed a lot. I also got kicked out and cant come back next year and less I get in to the school district...kinda sucks. But If I cant go to Crater with my friends then I guess Im not going to school at all. They dont want me back because I got in trouble for my MIP at school at our homecoming football game and because I missed like 94 days out of the school year and also I was tardy like 70 times. But I dunno I want to graduate but I dont see that happening anytime soon. I havent read any of my old entries but im sure I wouldnt say half of the stuff I said then that Id say now. I really just love to be around my friends and to party I'll do a lot just to be happy and laugh. And just like perty much every girl there was one guy that I really liked....but It would never work out thats ok though I love being his friend and if he has a girlfriend now as long as he's happy Im happy. I just got kicked out of my moms house yesterday it sucked a lot but I dont know she called me a slut and yeaa it got bad. I also have a niece she is 1 year old her names Trinity and I love her with all of my heart Id do anything for her no matter what it was. Well I dont have to much else to say right now but I have a webpage so go to it or something if you want to know some more about me..... http://www.myspace.com/eatcottencandy Well if u read what I wrote then thanks leave a comment or somethin or not whatever you feel like doing

I have no clue what enamored means!!! ya I never get on here n e more cause I go on 2 myspace now. but I though I would get on here n e wayz!!! this is stupid!!! Im at my friend nikkis house but ya im goin 2 go now l8r

Hey hella bored at school durin art dont feel like doin n e thing. I havent been on since like last year. Im hella bored and dont know what to do gotta go teacher

Ya I'm in first period right now but its really second. We're on activity schedule at me school. Im hella tired cause we had basketball practice till 9. I got home at 9:30 then I ate dinner then I took a shower and packed. I went to sleep at 11. Im goin to Leas 2day. We might go to the football game or to a dace Im not sure yet. Im hella bored theres nothin to do and Im hella tired.. Well I gotta go cause I have to do me homework L8R

Hey i just got out of homeroom I cant talk long cause my next class starts in 3 min or somethin so Im goin to go and I'll talk to u l8r peoples... I tried out for AAU basketball and made the team... Im goin to go to the crater game later 2night if I can cause I have basketball practice....well I got to go cause I'll get detention if im late again so l8r

Hey Im hella bored!!! I went to my step sisters house for 2 days a while ago. It was fun!!! I havent seen her for like 2 months!!! Im hell bored I dont know what to say really. Right now Im talkin to me friends. My friend Nikki went to Idaho for 2 weeks she hasn't called me yet. Well ya...I dont know what to write so Im goin to go and the one girl who keeps on talkin shit on here u need to stop cause its fuckin stupid cause I didnt do shit and ur the one startin shit!!! Its fucking stupid!!!

Hey peoples Im hella byper and hella bored!!!! N E wayz... I might go to my sisters house next thursday. Nichole if u read this my mom said u can come over so call me. Ya I talked to Lea and her boyfriend from Texas 3 way on the phone. Hes hella weird but hes pretty funny. Ummmm ya and we went online and we cussed at the people cause they were bein stupid bitches. Its was so fuckin funny. But Im goin to go cause I have to call a lot of people so l8er

Im so fuckin pissed my mom is a stupid skanky BITCH!!! I HATE HER!!! She has been gone since 12 this afternoon she left to go get some shot then she waited in Goldhill to pick up her boyfriend Then when her boyfriend got done she decided to stay at the fucking bar!!! STUPID SLUTTY WHORE!!! So when I called her there she was with her X BOYFRIEND!!! Even though she already has a boyfriend!!! WHAT A STUPID SKANKY CUMM GUZZLING GUTTER SLUT!!!! I HATE HER!!! I was so pissed I went and started a fire then I had to put it out cause its Fire season...How lame who ever made up that rule sucks ASS!!! Sooo....Now Im talkin to Jake and Cheyennea they ROCK!!! But Im goin to stop writin on here cause Im talkin to a lot of other people to so L8ER

It was so fuckin stupid Aimee and Juli are stupid fucking PREPS!!! THEY ARE THE BIGGEST PREPS I KNOW!!! I CANT STAND THEM!!! We got in this HUGE argument online and they would say things to me and since they arent very good at cussin people out I ended up sayin better things back..It was FUCKIN AWESOME!!! Im at me moms house and I was callin Jake to see if he was home and Ben kept on askin to talk to him he said he was goin to beat him up if he saw him...Bens me sisters friend hes 21 and me sister is 18...All of her friends are hella pertective when it comes to me. ya its hella weird but I guess its ok. I've been movin but I got all the way moved on Monday. But Im at me moms house right now I've been here since Wednesday. Well Its like almost 10:30 and nikki said she would call me back but she still hasnt...So Im sittin here waitin for her to call but I dont thing she is going to call back cause she will probaly end up going to sleep doesnt suprise me she does that sometimes. I've been hella bored!!! I was just holdin me cat but now I went and fed her some milk. My cat had kittens 7 weeks and 5 days ago. She had 4 mittens but one of them died after 4 weeks because she was to small that one was my favorite. But now Snickers is my favorite my mom is letting me keep Snickers its awesome! The other 2 cats names are Mo and Whiskey Shooter but we call him Shooter for short. Well Ya this is hella stupid I know but Im hella bored and I dont know what to do... well ya Im going to go cause im goin to try and call Nikki. so l8er

Hey wats ^??? Im so fuckin bored and hyper...lol so yuh know im not horny I just decided to put that....hmmm im fuckin bored theres not a lot to do....Hey Nikki...Umm Im goin to stop writin this cause its fuckin stupid and I dont know what else to write

Hey I have to write hella fast cause me step sister doesnt want me on her computer any longer so ya... Im so fuckin pissed Parker is tell in a lot of people I like him even though I make fun of him all the fuckin time...that stupid fuckin flea infested cum bubble swallower or how ever the hell yuh spell it....Soo ya my summers been hella busy!!! In like 2 weeks im gettin my cell phone and my hair done it fuckin rocks!!! well I got to go cause me step sister wont stop fuckin buggin me bout it so talk to yuhs l8er

Hey Im fuckin bored!!! Nothin to do just sittin here...I've been here all fuckin day ITS SO FUCKIN BORING!!! Theres nothin to do well Im goin to go cause I feel naughty and I want to make a fire so l8er

Hey im so fuckin pissed!!!! My moms fat ass boyfriend is such a fat toothless bitch he can go suck on a big cock and DIE!!! He fuckin eats everything in the house!!! Its hella rare if I ever get to eat there cause he usually eats everything so theres nothing there for anyone to eat. I was in the bathroom this morning putting on my makeup and I he was like oh ya I hate her shes stupid and I want my living room back and other shit like that. The ONLYFUCKIN REASON IM ALWAYS IN THE LIVING ROOM ALL THE FUCKIN TIME IS CAUSE I HAVE NO WHERE ELSE TO FUCKING GO!!!! My mom has my sisters friends as room mates so they get the other room. Its soooo fuckin stupid!!! Her friends are 21 so yuh know. N e waze Ya I've been hella busy for a while so thats why I havent been on . Im at me dads house right now my mom dropped me off a while ago and shes goin to pick me up when she gets back from her her doctor appointment. I would rather be here while shes gone then at there with that FAT TOOTHLESS BITCH!!! But ya im here with me friend Jj hes so fuckin awesome!!! I love him so much hes hella nice to me...But I gotta go so l8er