COULDN'T STAY TO WATCH ME CRY YOU DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME. Jamie went with me to the doctor's office this time. My mother thought she had been through enough, but she had no idea what I was going through. I felt like whatever was living inside me was going to die by itself, and everything was all my fault. Jamie opened the glass door for me as I stepped inside, shaking. "Relax..." she whispered. As Jamie filled out papers for me at the front desk, I saw the doctor who attempted an abortion on me. I ran to him. "Hi, do you remember me?" He paused for a second, his eyes narrowing, searching for a name. "Ah, yes. Lorraine." He realized. "I just wanted to ask..." and suddenly my voice became as shaky as my hands. "...what happened?" He sighed. "Come with me." I motioned a "hold on a sec" look to Jamie who stood dumbfounded. He led me to a small blue room which was colder than it looked. "Okay." He began. "...This could cost me my job... I realized how badly you wanted your baby. It was your decision, not mine." He stood placidly, looking over his shoulder after every word. "...and now you have to go to your family doctor and get your pre-natal vitamins and you are in dire need of a checkup... if you don't get one, you AND your baby are... gone."