Keep it to yourself

Background Point No. 1: Eight years ago, I was molested by an uncle. It was not an isolated incident, but went on over the course of 9-12 months, every couple of weekends or so. It stopped suddenly and was never mentioned again, the uncle never even seemed to acknowledge it in any actions or facial expressions after that. Background Point No. 2: He wasn't the only person to do it. Background Point No. 3: For some unknowable reason, I never associated the uncle's actions with the word "molestation." When others did things I felt uncomfortable or pressured, but I was genuinely brainwashed by the uncle. This is a sad thing for me to admit, but true. Background Point No. 4: I realized about two or three years ago how bad of a thing it was, and got angry. I have been angry on and off about it since then, and often ponder the overall effects of what happened on my life when I'm depressed. Background Point The Last: I'm on vacation in Hawaii with my aunt and her husband (the uncle in question), along with their nine year old son. The reason we came was for a birthday party for his brother who recently moved here. The uncle's entire family came as well. They left a few days ago. The Actual Story I told my aunt about what happened a couple nights ago. It didn't help a goddamned thing. I'm more pissed off than ever. I confronted the uncle. He cried and begged forgiveness. I don't really feel like it. My aunt seems to think it's up to me to decide what happens as a result of this information. She also wants to keep it a secret from the rest of the family and the world. The uncle just doesn't want to lose his wife. I feel like they are both selfish and stupid and I really don't know if I want anything to do with either of them. Everyone is acting like they are the victims of this situation except for me. I thought this might help me somehow, but it hasn't and it probably won't. Now more than ever I want to get the hell away from my family. The Point: Don't bother trying to make things better when you could only make it worse. Don't let a moment of weakness cloud any judgement which logic has upheld for years. If all else fails, just scream and swear and take every curse word and bullshit punishment they throw at you, save your money, get out, and never talk to them again. Because in the end, people are weak and stupid and they aren't worth it.
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It amazes how it seems how strong you're coming off with what had happened to you.
Not necessarily a bad thing.
Most people would sit there and cry about the situation and realize the facts like you did.
Every word you said was true.
And I'm sorry for what your weak, selfish uncle did to you.