"And its been a while, since I could hold my head up high And its been a while, since I first saw you And its been a while, since I could stand on my own two feet again And its been a while, since I could call you And everything I can remember Is fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that are rendered I stretched myself beyond my means And its been a while, since I couldn't say that I wasn't addicted And Its been a while, since I couldn't say I loved myself as well And its been a while, since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do And its been a while, but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you" ---Staind-It's Been A While i feel random. thats probably why im drawing. thats probably why im listening to van morrison. thats probably why im still awake. oh no wait, im up because kristen's up. well lets see...last entry i think i wrote bout crappy banff, so ill write about everyday since then (excluding today cause its 2;30AM). 25th-got home from banff, called up the russian cadet and hung out. 26th-russian left at noonish...before i was up, called josh, invited him over, its like 9;30 and he calls and says he isnt coming, i'd normally by mad but i just had thai food, so im happy. 27th-slept over at joshs house. mostly watched TV with patrick and jay while josh tried to fix his computer that hes just got back from the computer fixer...theres probably a better word, im just not in it 28th-i wake up and josh kicks me outta his house cause he thinks hes gonna go see angela. he calls me at like 5 and is like "yeah i didnt see angela. evans here. come to the mall or ill beat you up." and then im all like bring it on bitch, and hes like "oh its already been broughten." that didnt actually happen, and broughten isnt actually a word. well i went to the mall, we played some football, and then we went over to joshs house. spent an hour there and then came home. 29th-went to kristens house at 11;30ish. we watched a whole buncha much music i think. we had spinach salad and lassagna for dinner. spent some more time together. slept with her...like not sex but i slept.end time: 9;30PM. total elapsed time: 10 hours 30th-i dont remember. i think i went out. 31th-kristen tells me we're not spending new years together. i get sad. i go out for chinese food, i get happier. i go to a party, everyones drunk and high, people hooked up in the pants. 1st-so its like 3 or sumthing and im just about to start my hw and someone calls me. its kristen. i go over there expecting to have a good time...not like that though. well angela was there; we wennt on her comp and watched stoned flies, hamster in a fishtank, and end of the world. then somewhere alond there we called kristens creepy stalky friend who wants to talk metallica, well as soon as he heard my voice he blocked her on msn...i guess he didnt expect kristen to sound like me. um somewhere along there josh comes over and then leaves and comes back. then we had pizza and watched napolean dynamite. me and josh make plans to sleep over, then he walks angela home. i get interupted by the phone, its josh, he cant sleep over. well whatever its all good. then angela calls and all i hear kristen say is "im kinda busy. (murmurs from angela). yeah he's still here. (murmurs from angela). yeah im just finishing up." then my rents come and josh is in the car. we drop him off at home, i go home and then nothing special happens. i may have learnt some things when i got home, but theyre not important