I stand and clutch the cold railing tightly. There is a highly distinct memory which became real again. I was viewing it. I saw myself. Suddenly my eyes hurt so badly I couldn't cry. He was talking to me, but I couldn't hear him. I couldn't see him through the blurriness of my eyes. Parts of his voice got so quiet that he couldn't hear himself. "Dillan." "Don't. Em, Don't." I tried to grab him, to shake him, I wanted to slap him until he loved me again. I lunged forward. But it was too late. The first time he ever threw me off. "I'm sorry, but I can't love you in all this chaos." "D..D..il-" but I couldn't even finish his name. "I'm sorry, Emily." And he walked away. But I remember standing there until I couldn't see his back anymore. I guess I thought he would come back. And I'm still standing here. "Em." "Emmmm." Something abstract slapped me into reality. It was Max. "Are you coming, or what?" They were all looking at me. I forgot that Jenn and Rilee were next to me. "Earth-to-Emily. The MOOOVIE. Are you coming?" "Yeah, sorry, I blanked out for a sec." Jenn turned to me as we walked back. "Are you alright?" I hate lying. "Yes." Rilee ran to Ashley and here, Jenn found her chance. "What were you looking at?" I smiled. "Nothing."