ughh im home alone again .. im always home alone .. i was hoping ryan could come visit me today but he had to help his dad out all day .. he might still come over whenever my mom gets home .. i think im going taning today .. i was laying outside for a bit today i got a little bit of a tan but nothing to much .. but if i go taning after i think we're gonna pick ryan up i hope .. and then back here oMg im SOO damn bored no wonder im so freakin fat because all summer all during the week im home alone and theres nothing to do except eat .. JESUS .. summers gonna suck .. so will next year that will suck more than summer .. in october im going to prolly be home alone for a whole freaking week!! because my mom has to go to new jersery for work jesus christ what nurse has to travel?? wtf is that shit? idk .. and its not like ryan can come visit me so i wont be alone cause he's gonna be in college so thats just fantastic.. UGHH i bet if i kept track of all the times i end up home ALL alone in my whole life .. it would be like 87% out of 100% .. gayness.. :( i hate when people say oh i wish i were home alone as much as you are .. Omg NO NO you don't .. i have no one to talk to because everyone else has things to do .. man i wish i had like a sister closer to my age .. jens always gone and plus shes 5 years older than me i mean sometimes we hang out and have fun but a lot of the time shes with dave .. or like not interested in hanging out with me .. i really really REALLY H A T E!! being (( alomost 15 )) 14 .. :( well im gonna go be ALONE some more! :D woo.. *frowns* loveyou-