Everything is so complex Everyday is like a test full of obstacles That seem almost impossible And I’m thinking just another breath not a minute left. How long have I been drifting? Pass the glass pint hit the flash light now break it. People say I’m a star but I still think ill never make it. And I’m thinking just another prayer not a second left. I feel there’s something missing Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me when all the answers that I see go around me. Am I drowning? Am I fading away? OR am I living up to all your dreams that made me this way? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? I’ve been to hell and back looking for the answers to life. Looking at myself trying to get things right. And I’m feeling just another breath not a minute left. I feel the darkness lifting. There was a time That I questioned if Id ever be alright. Running getting high staying trapped by sleepless nights. And I’m thinking just another breath not a minute left. I feel there’s something missing. I’m running from myself and all the things I don’t like. Living every night like it’s the last night. And I’m thinking just another prayer not a second left. I need to stop resisting. Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me when all the answers that I see go around me. Am I drowning? Am I fading away? OR am I living up to all your dreams that made me this way? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Drowning in the drama lost in the lies trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides. Drowning in the drama lost in the lies trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides. Drowning in the drama lost in the lies trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides. Drowning in the drama lost in the lies trapped by the currents of life Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Sometimes I hate that chaos surrounds me when all the answers that I see go around me. Am I drowning? Am I fading away? OR am I living up to all your dreams that made me this way? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Am I drowning? Drowning in the drama lost in the lies trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides. Drowning in the drama lost in the lies trapped by the currents of life caught in the rip tides. this song reminds me of ryan cause he was singing it on the phone one time lol anywho second entry today well when my mom came home today we talked and she mad me sad:| she was all talking about when ryan goes to college and stuff like that .. UGH i don't want to think about that .. :*hides* so now im here listening to music and getting ready to shower even though its like amost 7:30 i feel nasty and showers relax me and im just a little stressed idk i feel like trapped idk wierd right? yeah so tomorrows the concert and i think i might be happy with just chillen in the back of the crowd cause everytime we get up right to the stage it gets very interesting and i get raped .. lol when ryan was here yesturday we were talking about the concert and he was like i dont want other guys grabbing you lol it was funny .. but anyway .. umm yeah last time was interesting .. kristina yeah .. lol and so idk it all depends on how i feel tomorrow today im kinda blahh .. ***i also want people to list the memories they have with me good or bad just any memory the first one that comes to mind*** well im gonna go-Byee (( ryan i love you and miss you ))