yesterday was the fourth, wahoo. well, my day was pretty shitty. i woke up at like 5 o'clock and got bitched out. note:I understand that everything I do is wrong and I am a complete fuck up, no need to remind me. called my buddies that i was supposed to hang out with. we went to Atlanta. it was definately badass. Then, we went to his buddy's house which was also badass. I have a feeling they're a swinging couple... that's okay with me. they were definately giving me vibes. Then my buddy called that I feel the closest to. The mutual one between me and my ex. Well, apparently my ex moved in with him because he got kicked out of his house for various reasons. So, after I got home he came and got me from my house because he needed to talk. We got drunk and went swimming in the pool. My ex ended up showing up at his house...waiting outside. It wasn't as weird as I thought it was going to be. probably because I was already fucked up, but I was definately getting weird vibes from him saying "God, I feel so fucking uncomfortable". Then we grabbed more drinks and went swimming again and then went back to his house and fell asleep. Yep. It was a wonderful night in my world. Nothing like some hard liquor and swimming to cap off the shittiest 4th of my life. After all of that, I still can't say that I wouldn't want him back. He still means the world to me...and I would do almost anything to get him back... party on lovlies