I don't understand it, they can't possibly know me for me. Guys never liked me before...i mean there were one or two here and there but that always ended quickly. And now, three of my closest guys like me...? Josh, i liked him for two years...and now that i haven't liked him for 2 months he decides to like me. It's weird...I'm not so sure. I tried so hard to regain his love in those two years but never was successful so i moved on. I loved him. Levi, oh levi, i've been through such a share with him...but i most definitly still love him. And then there is ryan...no experience there...he's so sweet...but i dono it's all a mess. I don't understand why they like me...when i ask they say i'm pretty...or gorgeous...or whatever. but i'm not. gorgeous is people like sarah desmond, tinah bean, and sarah/alex. I don't fit in with them when it comes to looks...they're stunning. Thats my definition of pretty...so that can't be right. Nothing ever lasts with me anyway...i don't have that luck...why on earth would they be willing to take that risk when each of them could easily find someone better. Someone more meaningful. Someone who has their life where they want it and isn't working so hard to change. Will the one i pick still like me once my transformation is complete... why like me...why care? -*-*-*-