Holy damn... I think its been like a month or two..I havent writin in a while. Nothing changed...summers here. Working... getting my liscene..fianlly!! =D I have no time to write in this anymore,because I'm never really home. But now It's summer and I'll try to do it a little more often. Anyways... Im going to Cali this summer!! sooo excited. And me and Joe are driving up to Lake Placid for a few days too!! this summer is gonna be a good one!! I can tell. Time for work.... Im off LoveYoou

I cant go to prom..... and it sucks really bad

Im sick....... of being sick

well im trying to think were to start. My day started ok and nothing hurt at all. But untill I went into health class. I started to get horrible pains in my stomach area and at first i thought it was just a stomach ache or something becuase i had been getting thoes lately but they always went away and this one didnt. So i asked to be excused from class and i went to the nurses office but she wasnt there. I told the hall monitor that i Had to go home. So I waited at the attendence office for her to call my grandmother and then It hit me. I felt this wave of pain come over me. The cramps hurt worse then anything and my whole body felt like it was gonna fall. I told the hall monitor i was gonna throw up and he sat me at a chair and put a trashcan in front of me. The other monitors said i couldnt stay in the main hall like that... So they opened the nurses office and They told me to come in. I had no energy in me what so ever so I told them I didnt and They helped me walk in the nurses Office. My whole body was sweating. I was shaking so bad and my hands tingeled so bad. I was having the worst hot flashes in my life. My whole body was just i dont know how to ever make up a word for how much it hurt. I told the tracy the hall monitor i couldnt sit down anymore because i was going to keel over. So they helped me lay down on a cot. My grandma was the only one home and she couldnt get there very fast because shes has to take her meds and stuff and it she doesnt shes feel faint and pass out. Not Good. I didnt know were my mom was working because shes a floater and they told me they had call the ambulance to take to the ER. I was like no im fine. They insisted that i wasnt. My pulse was super high and i couldnt breath right. The pain in the stomach area was horrible. It would come and go. The hall monitors were soo nice to me. They were soo helpfull and trying to calm me down. Then the GVAC people came. They gave me some oxygen to calm me down....didnt work i was crying hard and i was still shaking. They put me on the strecher and put a blanet over me and started to well me out. It seemed like there was 100 people in the main hall way. I was like great. I didnt want anyone to see....but everyone that went to BOCES was there and waiting and saw me. Im the kinda person who doesnt want people to know whats wrong with me, ya know? People talk and if they wanna know Ill tell them. So they wheeled me out to the ambulance and asked me questions and took my blood and put and IV drip in me so when i got the to the hospital they wouldnt have to to it again. I was scared and shaking and the pain still would come and go. My mom was already at the ER @ St.Marys when i got there. She looked like she has been crying. They wheeled me to my ER room and were asking my questions. The nurse helped me take off my cloths and put a gown on. I didnt feel uncomfortable at all....which is werid. I didnt have to energy to do it myself. They gave me an IV and some pain meds. They hooked me up to the monitor for my pulse and breath rate. Kinda of werid. I had wires everywere and to tell you the truth i was scrared. I took a pee test and they already took my blood. They wanted to know if it was my kindy or appendix. And if it was that, then i would need surgury. They told me they wanted to take an Ultra Sound to check my ovaries. So the nurses wheeled me down and i got ready. It wasnt like a the ultra sound your thinking were the put the jell on my belly.....it was different but i wont go into details. So i got down with that and they wheeled me back to my room. We waited. Me and my mom talked. She said it was the worst feeling in to world to get a call that your child was being taken from school in an ambulance to the ER. I was like wow..... i didnt think off that. But anyways.. we waited.. and waited for about 4 hours. The doctor came back and told me what was wrong. My blood test came out fine. But on the utral sound they found that I had a sist on my ovarie that had burst. I was kinda like wow. I would have never know. The pain was from that. He said Id be fine but i would need to come back the next day to get a check up. And to put me on some meds. Id have to say I was scared and I dont really like the E.R. Or needles. That was my day.

well yesteday was MY BIRTHDAY!! im 17 now =] and very happy. i got a lot of nice things and a really nice digital camera Ive been wanting...so im happy i got that =] but i was sick and i still am so it kinda sucks but all together it was nice to have my family and friends come over to make me feel better and Joe was really nice to. He made me dinner at his house and was just there for me all around. Its nice to have him there for me. So besides feeling like total shit on my birthday and still feeling like shit it was a good birthday and hopefully ill be better by friend for tubbing and saturday for Scary Kids Scaring Kids!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =] i love you Joe!

CHIODOS IN 2 DAYS!! time to party

Yea my head does hurt cause my moms a dumb ass and has the TV up so FUCKING loud....i wanna hit her. =] anyways....this week was pretty good. Joe had his battle of the bands last night...they won too. Which is pretty cool. We brought Ali with us and we drank in the car before it started. There was little kids everywere....it was horrible. ahahah The weather was so shitty out too,i thought we were gonna die trying to make it home from the middle school. But we did, well kinda we didnt make it up our hill so we had to walk up. Then Joe spent the night because he didnt wanna drive home and the weather was really bad out. So that was awesome, because i love spending time with him. Then I woke him up and made some breakfast. And we played John Deere American Farmer for 2 hours. ahahah we suck at it our corn died =[ Then i went to my aunts house to clean. I made 40 dollars which is awesome! Then joe came over for a bit before he had to go to Excell to play. I tried to see him as much as I could cause i wont tmrw because he was to work and then hes going to Jiminy Peak to ski. Ill miss him =[ Like i think about being with him for my whole life and I love it. Theres nothing about him that i dought. Thats good right? I think it is. I miss him when he walks out my door. Ive waited for so long to find someone who isnt an asshole and who loves me. After being fucked over so many times i finally found my match. I wanna marry him. I want him to have my kids when im older nad have a house with him. I love him that much its crazy. People will think im stupid but i know Im right about this....he is my world. Hes what i wanna see laying next to me for the next 50 years. I love thinking about that....it makes me love life. Joseph Michael Camino I{}Love{}You ♥

Today i well kinda skipped school....there was a 2 hour delay and i didnt feel like going to school cuz i didnt wanna walk down my huge ass hill to get to the bus...plus there was no VoTech anyways and if i did go id have to wait and hour and a half to go to my 3 classes at the end of the day. Joe came over tho..with donny cause donny skipped VoTech,so they chilled and played a little guitar and they smoked a little. Joe hasnt smoked in 2 months come to think about it because of our little bet we had going on...but he won and he can smoke now....but hes gonna quit anyways which is good. New Years was a fucking blast!! Tina,Val,Kels,Gene,Jaimie,Shawn,Taylor and Joe all came over. I had more people over for my then my mom had for her, which is werid! haha we all got fucking wasted. Well Shawn and Joe didnt cuz they were gonna be driving (smart boys) Tina was GONE!! I mean GONE she was soo trashed.. and i had more then she did! But it was funny her and taylor were ALL over each other the whole night. I hope something happens with them, cause taylors pretty chill and i approve =] But after everyone leaft and it was only tina, val, kels and gene. Tina started to fall everywear!! She was talking about the weridest things and she kept telling me she loved me and kept hugging me too!! it was fucking funny. So i finally got her and val to bed...well pass out and that took awhile cause tina kept coming down stairs and she pissed and passed out right outside of the bathroom door!! HAHAH it was funny shit. Then kels and gene slept on my floor in the living room...because gene was drinking and my mom took his keys. ahaha hes 21 anyways so thats where we got the booze from =] besides that New Years was funn! Christmas went ok.. i spent it with Joe but me and my mom got in a hugeee fight on Christmas morning....HUGE. She kicked me outta my house and we didnt go gifts untill 9 that night cause i didnt go home...i didnt want to. I was so glad i had Joe there to help me throught it all. We went to his aunts house and then his moms and then back to my hell house. Idk now i kinda dont like christmas anymore...hopefully next year wont turn out like this yrs did. =[ But anyways... my Birthday is in 27 DAYS!! haha cant wait im gonna be 17!! then FUCKING CHIODOS IS IN 24 DAYS BITCH!! my birthday show....cant wait! Joe♥

im in earth science.. ali is beating me =[ but i like it =] but it hurts!! school blows. i like the movie- A Christmas Story word. ali gives me buttsekz =] skut. she has yellow eyes, SO HELP ME, Yellow EYES!

You know the funniest thing happened to me....i leaft my hoodie on the table in the commons like last week before the first bell rang. And The next day I noticed i didnt have it, so i went to the office. I told them that I was missing it and they said to look in the lost and found....so I did. And nothing. The lady in the office told me to go to home and car. because I guess they wash things sometimes and it wasnt there. So yesterday i was on the bus going to VoTech and i saw this girl...and she had my hoodie ON!! i was like WTF!! i was pissed, but i didnt know how to ask her with out being a bitch! So i went to the office and told them and they said theyd do something about it. So i was like Ok. I was even more mad cause its Joes hoodie and his fav one too. But anyways, so i told her friend about it and she said she just saw it on the table and wore it!!! I was like WTF!! Then I realized that she wore it for like 3 days in a row inside out!! Omg i was like WHO DOES THAT!! seriouly. But today I got it back and her friend said she didnt even care, so i was like thats good. But that is werid. I mean if i found something in school id deff wouldnt wear it the day I found it....to think about it...i wouldnt wear it AT ALL!! Id give it to lost and found. But thats just me. I mean if i found something on the street thats diff. hahaa anyways...joes coming over soon. I glad because he only stopped by for like 5 mins last night because he had band practice, which sucked because he looked SOO cute!! I went to his house as usual on tuesday and he took me around the trails by his house on this ATV. It was maddd fun!! We hit these big jumps and i drove (and sucked) sleds are more my thing anyways. ahah then we went at night and it was really scarey! There was this one opening and it was super werid and freaky and come to find out Joe told me 5 people died there from getting in acctidents. I was like ohh god, never going on that thing in the dark AGAIN!! and it was only 6! haha Were sopos to get a snow day tmrw, because the weathers sopos to be pretty shitty!! thank god. But not because tina and I were sopos to work tmrw night and i dont know if we can get there if the roads are bad, which stinks. Im going christmas shopping for Tina and kels and the others on sunday with Joe. Im excited because i get to make one of tinas gifts...its gonna be awesome!! haha shell lovee it♥ I started to talk to victoria again, which is nice because I hate not talking to people I use to be close with...the old times were good. Things have changed soo much over the course of a year. Not even it seems. I lost some friends...well not really lost, im just not as close. And I gained a best friend, which is tina. Idk val and i arent that close anymore...were getting there. But things arent really the same when we first meet. I mean ill always have her back and shell always be one of my friends but I guess having younger friends does that. Considering most of my friends are younger. I mean it seems like it doesnt do much, but it does. Sometimes the maturity level is lower....which gets annoying. Tina isnt that immature. I mean yea we all are, but when the time is right she is and when its not she isnt. Thats good. Well my fingers hurt (sounds wrong) but they do and i think im gonna call tina. word. Joseph Michael Camino ♥ -I- -Love- -You-

like tina said.... I work at Saratoga Winners =]

well im at joes right now... were looking at pictures of his family!! there soo cute!! =] im glad i got to spend the WHOLE f-ing day with him!! it was soo much fun ;] and then we wrestled and guess who won... ME haha im the princess!! beotch!! he should be taking me home to get stuff and then im going to tinas tonight!! shes gonna dye my hair again!! Now its like black and blonde and brown and light brown! Its crazyyy cool!! hahah I love joe...he makes me soo happy! Everything is going perfect.... great friends and joe!! Thats all i need is tina and joe!! hahaha Well there is some stupid drama going on...its just dumb and someone is puttiing words into my mouth and that gets me mad....cuz i would never EVER say anything to hurt tina cuz shes like my best friend and that gets me really...really pissed but w.e...i hope she knows i wouldnt say anything like that....grrrrr!! but anyhow amsterdam is going to the "bowl"!! hahaa weeeeeeeee well joe almost shit on me....its ok i love him!! =] welll thats all tima for tinas!! Joe I Love You ♥

well tinas on the phone and im throwing shit at her and shes making me laugh but anyways... this week has been good..Vo-Tech is going awesome and so is Joe. They had a show last week and they did soooo good!!(check um out @ www.purevolume.com/lettersforalover) They went in the studio all last week and it sounds awesome even for not being mixed yet!! Last night me,joe and my family all went to my step-dads for a dinner thingy for his dads and my g-mas birthday. It was nice, really good food too!! haha I felt kinda bad cuz i was being a bitch on Tuesday night cuz of "that time of the month" and i was getting all pissy cuz he was late to my house and he usually is sometimes and then monday night he called me an hour after he was sopos to be at my house but i forgave him. hah im nice like that. Hes goin to the studio again tonight but idk why and he said hes in a bad mood so i hope hes ok when he gets to tinas. Well tinas off the fone and were gonna walk to rite-aid and get her eye liner and then eat our taco bell and wait for my joey to get here!! Toma Joey I_L o v e_Y o u ♥

Leah asked me what it is that I'm head over heals in love wit her. However I couldn't explain it at that point and I'm not sure if I can now. It'd be easier to name off reason why I shouldn't love her: there is no reason. Leah is perfect. When I think about making love to her the first thing that comes to mind is her eyes. I could list off tons of physical reasons to be in love with her but that's nut love it's lust. For example her beautiful blue eyes, her amazing body (which she thinks is fat but isn't), her legs that make up 3/4 of her body. Like I said though that is lust. Love is being able to stay up until 4 AM on the phone just laughing or cheering each other up. I love the corny good night/bye kisses over the phone. She really does mean the world to me maybe it's the way she thinks it's cute how I say faggot or how she thinks my whinny voice ic cute that coule be a reason why I love her. Of all the people I know I've never met anyone at all like her. Whenever we're together her hand is always in mine or when I'm driving it's on my leg but soon in my hand. I love the way she bites my nose even though it hurts but any pain is worth endoring to see her. This period (9th) sems never ending and then to think I still have one more period before I can call her is suicide for the 13 seconds it takes for me to get back to writing . At 16 and 17 years old you have crushes you probably always do no matter you age but anyhow I've forgotten all that I had Leah's the only girl I think about now. I love you

damn i havent writen in this thing in a longgggggggg time. Well i havent had a fone now for about 2 months i dont really care cuz my whole family has cell phones but i had dial up and cuz i dont have a home phone that means no internet....i dont really mind tho...cuz i only talk to about 3 ppl and Joes allways over my house anyways and im always at tinas so theres really no point in caring. Besides not having the internet....but oh well.. So much has happened....rich and i dont talk anymore....well I guess it was because i found someone and i didnt wanna be tied down to rich cuz he lives 2 hours away and i only see him like every month or 2 months and thats BS and i couldnt deal with that and needed someone that lived here and that i could be with...and i did find that someone. I REALLY happy to...his names Joe. Im in love with him and hes the biggest sweetheart...we get along so well and sometimes it feels like a fucking dream when im with him but its not and im glad :) He had a show last night @ Redmens and it was sooo awesome...he played so fucking good. and at the end of there set don joes cuz goes "leah leah leah joe says he loves you" and they played a set from chiodos!! it was soo awesome!! =] Hes my world well that was about it id write more but i have to go to a parade right now:x Joe♥

I hope you don't mind me writing in here I was bored and you went to bed early. I wish you could see yourself the way that everyone else does. You're so insecure about yourself and thinking that you're fat. You aren't. I know you're sitting there reading this and saying that I don't know. Yeah you're right, I probably don't, but I can see wiht my own two eyes, you're everything any guy could ever ask for. The only flaw I can think of is your insecurity but everyone is insecure, just some more than others. Leah you have nothing to be insecure about, you have an amazing body, I've seen almost every inch of it. We were talking and you said that if we ever stopped talking you'd be afraid I'd be a dick to you like I am to Melissa, I think if we ever stopped talking I'd still love you. I will always love you. You think that you miss/love me more than I do you, it's hard to imagine that anyone could be in love more than I am with you. You're all I think about, from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep listening to voice mails you've left me. All I've been able to do is think about the weekend I get to spend with you, I'm so excited. You asked before how I knew that I loved you the first time I said it. I've been thinking about it and I can't explain it, you don't pick who you fall in love with, you just fall in love with them. If I could pick who I wanted to fall in love with I couldn't pick anyone better, it's not possible. I guess once you're in love you actually realize it such as you forget what life was like without that person, it's kind of like that Mae song "we're so far away". I love you I know nothing about sitdiaries so if you're leah's friend or whatever and you know her personally leave her a comment or whatever saying what you think of her. thank you ~Rich

well my internets out at home so i wont be on a lot...or at all!! sucks but wat am i gonna do!? anyways.......... CHIODOS IS TONIGHT!!! omg ive been waiting for this for soo fucking long!! last nite i was SOPOS to see them....the show got canceld half way throught!! (gay) but oh well tonight is gonna kick ass!!! Rich I Love you ♥

Yea i do feel slight hungover...haha Last night was such a BLAST!! We all went down to the boat and waited for the fireworks cuz last night was the RING OF FIRE (muhaaha) There were so many ppl at Domicks it was great! It was me,Jess,Kyle,Kathy,Ken,Mom,Bob,Denis and his gf all on the boat. Jess let me have some beer and i had some vodka and coke(yummy) I was just a little buzz, but she was COCKED!! haha she finished a whole bottle of hypnotic. There was this boat on the other end on the marina and they were blasting Kid Rock and AC/DC it was great. Then the fireworks started and our boat went nuts! We were yelling and screaming and beeping the horn and sayin the RANDOMEST things!! ahah we were DEFF the loudest boat on the marina that night. Everyone was just laughing and having a good time...it was so much fun! Jess is really awesome too! :) Then when they were done i walked the dog back up to the house while everyone stayed there and i came back to the house and went to the frig and theres a Bacardi Silver..3 to be exact...so i drank thoes and called my baby richard♥ I dont think he was mad i was kinda drunk....cuz now were even on our little deal thingy! so this was the last night for drinkin and then last weeknight of summer :( I talked to rich untill he went to bed adn then i watched this mad good show about the hurricane katrian. It was a good show. Anyways...i hear the bike and now that means mom,bob and I are gonna go for a nice ride to Lake George and have lunch :) sounds fun!! Cuz its such a nice day today!! Then maybe im goin to the Fonda Fair with tina and valerie! Happy Labor Day People!! Love You♥

Well yesterday i went to the fonda fair with tina! haha YEEE HAWWW!! thats what i have to say to teh Fonda Fair. It was fun tho!! Tinas sister dropped us off and then we walked around for about..ohh four hours! haha. I saw 2 ppl from a-dam. So thats good...i didnt wanna see anyone from my school anyways. We went to go see the cows adn man....do the moo REALLY loud!! hahaha Tina kept thinking she smelt like cow shit...but she didnt. Then these group of kids was following us and sayin shit to us. The one kid i thought was cute. Then this kid that was working there told tina he was gay and she goes to him "omg i love gay ppl!" and hes like "im not gay my gf over there" and he was deff a hick too. Then tina goes randomly..."Ill get someone two dollars for a lap dance" and this guy walks by and goes "HEY i got two dollars". We were laughin so hard! Then his guy walks by and goes to me "HEY you got a NICE ass" i was like OMFG.. it was soo funny! haha Tina and I would say random shit like "HEY WAT AER YOU DOIN" it was great! So then that group of kids stopped me and tina and the drunk one was like..."hey my friend thinks your cute and he shy and he wants your number" i was laughin but i was like ok! It was the kid i thought was cute anyways!! so i gave him my number and there like ok well deff hangout sometime. Hes from northville...which is only like 40 mins away, on the lake. So then me and tina walked to the exit and they were there and the drunk kids like "HEY you need nicks number" and he took the pen and wrote his number on my arm :) Hopefully hell call!? he was cute :) Anyhow...im goin to go back in the attic and sleep. Y o u

I cant believe i almost forgot the BEST part of my summer...well one of the best! My love rich came and saw me wed. omG it was awsome!! i love him so much. Its so much fun hangin out with him and being around him...me makes me so happy. He came and got me from band and then we went to my house for awhile and hung out♥ Then we went and got tina! And had dinners at franks...even tho it was burnt chicken and i think a blind person could of made better food :x haha but thats ok. Then we went to PC and got eggs and cookie dough. then we droped tina of and rich took me home after a unmm short "detour" and he let me drive!! hehe He meet my mom and my g-ma and bob! Then he had to leave :( but im so glad i got to see him....it was awesome and a half! ♥ Idk were id be sometimes if i didnt know him and meet him.... thanks myspace! hopefully ill get to go to his homecoming thingy at this school. well thats all for now....i had to put that entry in there. love you richard howard rhone♥