Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck. I am barely breathing and I can't find the air. Don't know who i'm kidding imagining you care. And I could stand here waiting, a fool for another day.

I Keep falling into these fucking traps. I thought Matt was perfect. fuck him. And Fuck Ricky too. I'm so sick of having feelings. I wish I could feel nothing at all. just a heart of stone. I don't need these people with false intentions. And now Ricky lives with Lauren, so I have to see him, and we can just be "good friends" fuck you. FUck fuck fuck. oh wait I did, and it just fucked me over. It wasn't even great sex, but i wanted more. If you give a moose a muffin... Yeah I knew he had a girlfriend, but who the fuck am I to believe that? she doesn't even have sex and lives in AZ. Well I'm glad someone is happy and has his dream girl. Fuck him. I dont care if i'm bitter, I already know I am. I hate guys. I figure I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life anyways. I might as well get used to it. Fuck Shane. and Lukas, and Ricky, and Matt. Fuck Chris Sweeney. I just want to break down. Make it all be over with. I don't want to have feelings for anyone any more. I'm so over it. Fuck love, its all lies, there is no such thing as true love.