Thats just how my dad is, I dont know why he acts that way. I mean my sister was kinda attacking him but like she was only defending herself... i dont know its really hard to explain. Like he is my Dad. I dont really like talking about it that much. My family is kinda fucked up. He will say mean shit about my mum sometimes and about her family, and it makes me and my sister sad. Cause thats our family too and its just all a mess. Im a very inward person, I dont usually speak up unless I fell i have to. Im a very mellow person. But at the moment im really confsued and lost on what to do about Tyler (my ex or kinda ex) like things between us are so fucked up right now and so like weird I just dont know what to do. like I dont want to give up on him but I dont want to have to be some slideline bith and i dont even know if he still cares about me even thought he says and dose but he dosent show any sort of comapssion anymore and I just feel used and neglceted AHHHHHHHH!!!! see what i mean?

Why the fuck dose all this shit have to happen now? its the end of the school year summer is soon, and we were so close and it just makes me so fucking angry after everything i have done for him, all the fucking shit i delt with and its so annoying!! I dont want to feel like a crazy bitch anymore, my emotions are like going crazy and its like killing me to have to hide all this bullshit from everyone. cause I dont want people to find out cause all i will here is "i told ya so" and if by some chance things do work out I dont want my Mum to know or els she would probably not want me around him or want him in the house. UGH... dramma dramma dramma.. I hate it so much and I hate how I sound so stupid and lame right now but I cant help it. I dont know what els to do or where els to turn to at this point. it sucks.everything just seems to just totally suck....