when i first saw you, i was immediately turned off. you were the guy that every girl wanted and i could tell you knew it. i watched you at that party, effortlessly talking to any pretty girl in the room, using your charm to make her blush and giggle. i was off to the side, like i usually am. you know i hate being the center of attention. i was talking to some good friends when all of the sudden, i felt your presence behind me. not just anybody's presence, i could tell it was you.

that was when you saw the secrets in my eyes and you told me you wanted to know more. i was hesitant, of course. i don't want a guy that's wanted by everyone, i knew that was trouble. i was quickly mesmerized by you, though, as mesmerized as those silly girls i had just made fun of minutes before. your blue eyes were genuine, your smile sincere. you had me, then and there.

we went to the park and we traded memories and laughs and our histories.

time moved as it does, slowly and quickly all at once. all of the sudden we were in love and i don't even know if you realized the rarity of that for me. love, before you, was merely an idea i scoffed at. i was sure it was all an exaggeration of pent up sexual tension or some other nonsense psychological explanation.

until i met you and i saw that there was someone in the world that could understand, empathize, care, promise, love...

and just as quickly you took it all away. with no warning, with no regret, we were sitting on that couch; you with only a half-hearted apology that made the pain worse.

this is a lot of words to say just this: i loved you. i will always love you. you taught me to love and how to be loved and i will forever carry that with me. you broke my heart but at least now i have faith that there will be someone that will put it back together and care for it for the rest of time.

waiting.