Im having faith in things again. I can see your selfishness slowly slipping away. I appreciate how you try and stop yourself before you make a selfish move. I appreciate your sensitivity. I can tell youre trying to be more thoughtful, and kind. And all these little changes are making me feel so much better. I know that we will have our struggles. But I also know that we will overcome them all. I have no doubt in my mind that forever, with us, means FOREVER. I cant wait for that next step. Its only been, almost, five months, and we've already been through so much. I know we can do this. ____ I dont know why I do this to myself, though. I sit, and I lurk, just for fun. And Ill read things, innocent things, and ill scare myself. And convice myself of something more. I hate the feeling of worrying about other females. I hate the consistancy of wonder that never ceases to leave my mind. "Does she have a better body?" "Is she prettier?" "Is she nicer?" "Would SHE make a better girlfriend?" Im sure everyone in their lives has times when they feel like a terrible significant other, for no good reason. I guess tonight is my time. I just want to be the best girlfriend that I can be. Im convinced im going to drive myself insane. I need to love myself. Because it will be so much easier, then, to believe that he loves me. And that he wont leave me for another broad.