fuzzy??? who thinks of these moods any ways..... alot has changed sence so long ago i am nolonger sad lonely miserable and depressed i have my one happy thing that ive always been looking for as i said in the last entry *new song* Hinder-get stoned anyways... this is great fun good to know that when i get to bored i can just type away at a screen and know that nobody will look at it cus i havnt wriotten in so long ppl might think i fell off the face of the earth not that i have ne friends on here neways lol well yeah Just to let you know O.K.U.G.A.D.P!!!! THE MASSACURE HAS BEGUN BITCHES!!!!!!!!!! almost for got that again *new song* G&R- patience yes its taking me a while to type this cus idk what to say so i guesse ill just save it for later... ~Peace!!!! ~~~~~~EDIT~~~~~~~ I forgot to add the fact that i quite smokeing!!!! u people should be proud of me!!!! :) And i have just6 realized that this site is full of people that want to kill them selves!!!!! Where are all the normal people?

i have achieved this eternail bliss i have been looking for.... his name is joseph a. belles.... he is the most amazing person i swear to god... but yeah my dad is still an asshole $50 a week for 3 kids and no medical... my grandpa is goin for surgery today..... but with these few dissapointmants my joe makes it all better..... I LOVE YOU JOE!!!!!!!!

Well my greatgramma has cancer... my grandpa cant go with ot and oxygen tank for the rest of his life... my dad sent devorce papers in the mail... and i want it all to end.... no more suckyness... no more depression... no more sadness... only pure joy... and happyness... and eternal bliss!... Will i ever get this?... probably not... no one is always happy... shit happens!!!!..... ...................~Peace~

Check me out!

srry i havnt wrighten in a while ive been mad busy! im in college now and dont really have the time to do shit anymore. it sux every tuesday and thursday in here fro 6 hrs between my classes! it really blows but check out www.sitdiaries.net/emo its funny especially the poke the bunny entry! at first u wont get how its addicting but it is trust me! well i g2g have fun and ttyl!

not trying to sound so bad but.... IM IN PAIN..... my ear hurts.... my throat hurts.... my tooth hurts.... my knee hurts.... my wrist hurts.... and my nose is all stuffed up.... my graduation party is saturday and 2 ppl rsvp'd.... wow im loved! I wanna go back to bed but cant cuz the boys will wake up and its hard to sleep when ur in this much pain and have no pain killers.... trust me!!!!!!! Cant i have a normal day to where nothing hurts and the boys listen to me and all that other unneccesary bullshit.... a 8 yr old that dont listen and a 7 yr old that gets away with murder..... im getting fucking pissed off! sorry i told u im in pain.... which means im rambling! .....Peace!!!!

friday was fucking awsome!and kara and my mommy cried!!! hahah wat gay ppl :P losers! prom was the best effin night then the hipnosis...... read my sup profile for kiddosmurf420 aim sn or subprofiles.com for kiddosmurf ull read a few about it!!! wow to happy to type later.

yesterday was my last day og highschool! a graduate in a week and prom is tomorrow im to happy to type i want to just dance all over the place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so ill tell more on a laterday!

Ya my sister is like yelling at me through e-mail and diaries comments about not askin and shit well i did and was planning on goin but when i got home my mom said they already left so ya u cant blame me when u wernt home.... oh and her entery said she thinks she ugly... hun ur beautifull and u know it... how often do u get a boy thats interested in you.... ive had 1 bf in the past 3 2 yrs and that relationship ended 2 yrs ago and i havnt had one sence..... im going to my senior prom WITH MY UNCLE.... And why?.... hes the only guy (other then urs) that wants to be seen with me there..... im sure for ur prom ull have many to choose from i had none really.. Any way im going to prom next wknd and then the week after that is my graduation.... June 25th at the forum in binghamton at 10am..... thank god its almost over..... this past saturday we started with $17 and sold lemonaid and popcorn and ended up with $75.55....... thats a ......... $58.55 profit.... gotta holler at that..... oh what are we doin with the money..... goin to hershey park.... kinda like a graduation present 4 me... ive never been ther and dont live that far away.... well i g2g b4 i break the schools keys cuz i havnt had a *cough~cig~cough* in like omg hours like as in 9.00 last night was my last one!!!!!!!!

well its been awhile. happy memorial day all..... whatever....another holiday alone.... prom is in a few weeks guesse who im goin with..... my uncle...... the only guy who has been there for me through every thing.... and ive never faught with him...... gotta love then uncles.... well have a shitty day.....opps i mean a good day...... :):):):):)):) .....................Peace!!!!!!!!!!!

well for my b-day i got a dvd player, shoes, nail polish, eye shadow, 20$, 100$ gift cert. fer walmart, a go get 'em grad book, a coffee cup, dinner, cake, ice cream, and i beleive thats it..... but i also clean for the party ... then went out to dinner.... then had party...... got up for school the next day....... ran a mile and 1/2....... almost missed the bus....... and came home and cleaned alittle more.... and now im ready fer bed..... talk to yall later!!!!!!

it is my b-day and i am finally 18!!!!! i am so fricken happy its unreal..... i wanna dance... i think i will.... i tell more abou thow my day goes later on maybe tomorrow..... .......Peace!!!!

there was a total of like 15 seniors in school to day cuzza the senior trio that i didnt go on so i had 6 hrs werth of study hall and i dont have school on monday.... mom starts he weekends tomorrow i love my mom... shes the best... no body is to blame for my problems but my self .....unless its not really my problem but becomes mine.....then its thier fault and they can be blamed... well ig2g ..... ...........Peace!!!!

well its 4-20 and i quite a mad long time ago so this isnt even a holliday and means absolutly nothing to me.... and i still didnt go to scholl. so there bitches fricken fudge!!!! sh.... shush shush shush shush shush!!! Gaylord Focker Rocks my werld ;) lol not really but u know!!!! U have just been fockerized!!!!!!!!!!!! ............Peace out dawg;);) D.A.W.G. dawg!!!!!!!!!!! u do not spell dog D.O.U.G ..... i learned that shyt the hard way!!!!!

dan need to fricken die.... u cant call my sister a cunt.... u cant tell someone to go get "********" again... that just makes u an incosiderate fricken prick.. u fricken piss me off... and u need to fricken die!!! FRICKEN FUDGE!!!!!~lol sista!!!....holler!!!! well on a lighter notre i got a 100 in civil, a 93 in science, im passen eco and pig, and i got a *cough~39~cough* in math. welp imma get outta herre...... ..........Peace the Frick out!!!!!!!!

well yesterday cody told me if he wasnt such a busy prsn he would cum visit me. and he didnt fix my spellin of that word. and i know know what u can do with a physics degree ....... sit there and look pretty!!!!!!! his exact werds....holler!!!!!well ttg................ ..............Peace!!!!!

Welp everything is good here and stuff.....all i know is that i need a b/f sooooooo bad. omg this one dream i had was so amazing i mean like omg. it was sooooo great ....... uhhhh the sprinklers ..........oooooooooooooooooo........u shoulda seen it...... :D!!!!!!!! My sis knows abt. it!!!!!!!! ;) well i g2g tell u more later.

These 5:30 mornings gotta stop. I cant do it. Ive lost soooooooooooooooo much sleep because of it and daylight savings time. grrrrr. Im gonna start gettin up at 6:00 and see how that werks out. Hopefully alot better. Then get on the bus and stuff.Well we im out........... ...........Peace!!!!!!2

im finally out of that shit whole trailer. i am nolonger trialer trash...now im just white trash.....and i am proud to say that. :) well its been real and ill up date later.... ..........peace

I am movin in like less then 2 weeks and the ones that like around this precise area that call me their best friend and say how thell miss me soooooooo much arnt around.....but guesse who is..... the one whos always there when i need her....no not jessica.....Meagan....the one ive known fer like my entire life...sence i was..ummmm.....3. thats like forever ago. those other bitches dont know what ther missen......dumbasses......i mean come on whos not gonna miss me......im a missable prsn. u all just donty know me well enough.!!! ........2 cool fer school.......and all of the dumbasses. bitches meg~n~me forever!! Mess with the best die with the rest! wow i just scared myself. guesse i cant call them dumb if im just as mich a dumbass......der......... ..........Peace!!!!!!!!!!!