You are not Pit jesus. You have an ego the size of texas. Seniors aren't the most important things ever. Having a badly organized 'strike' is silly and unnecessary. Kthnx- Me. Thumb, get over it. I didn't break you. So stop hurting. Your messing up my life. -Me. Yearbook photo people, PLEASE go back to photo 1. Because you all suck at life. Who grows up to take yearbook photos? Those with IQ's in the double digits, obviously. Take better photos. -Moi. You. Stop being so hot. It makes me regret being such an ass last year. -Me. You. Yes, you. I'm not trying to get into your friends pants. Eww. Thats like incest to me. You are just pissed because you are ugly, unsocialized, and retarded. No one likes you and you are mean to your mum. Who is WT, like you. But nicer. Go help the clarinet section and die. Love, -Me. Hmm. I never said I was a nice girl.

Wargh. Geometry is fun but its not at the same time. I'm geometry retarded. But so are my classmates so Its alll goooooood. Because my non-honours class ROCKS. They are fun. Funtime. Hardeeharhar. ITS OVER.

Not really. Its just that my uterus hurts and life sucks only not. The only thing that sucks is my lack of free time EVER and my uterus and my craptastic speaking abilities. Because my extemp speeches have gone WAY down hill because I don't have my note card anymore. Because its holding me back. And try practicing your instrument plus doing a beastly course load plus giving a speech everyday. Its not gonna work. So I'm going to see if I can quit band class and take gym or something stupid. Because I can handle gym because it is stupid and easy. And band is sucking the life out of me. And its royally fucking up my senior schedule unless I take gym now as a sophmore. Why'd I ever join band? Because I'm fucktarded, thats why. And I WAS good at it. Now I don't practice and I suck, and its all my own fault. I'm not obsessive over it like the rest of the bandies. You Are Apple Cider Smooth and comforting. But downright nasty when cold.What Part of Fall Are You? Mmmm... Cider.

I kinda forgot where on the internet this is. But I found it. It only took nearly 2 months. School continues to grate foward one nauseating step at a time with a few breaks provided by the comings and goings of the INTELLIGENT life. As in the majority of my classmates couldn't find their *coughcoughfootballplayingcheerleadingcoughcough* asses with a detailed map written in their lingua franca AOL sp33k. Honestly. This is why I take French. But I don't get to French 3 until next semester. Damn. But I like last lunch. The band kids all squeeze together at this table that just isn't big enough. Some people have dispersed to sit with their non-band friends *GASP* but its still all the way full. Well, its either the bandies or the goth squad. And the bandies don't openly stare at my chest. Usually. Woah dang. Whenever I write private entries that kinda bash people who I'm pissed at (which is why, incidentally, they are private) they always start out DEAR *offender's name here* I miss Camp Ernst. And I hate it when people who you don't even know snark at you when you post on here. Its bloody annoying. And I hate it when the one person you like and want has no clue who you are sometimes. But thats ok. It has to be.

My Perfect Guy --Your Favorite-- Hair Color: Darker. Red, brown, black. Eye Color: Green, gray, hazle, whatever really. (Their)Music Genre Preference: Whatever floats their boat. No rap or country though. Height(estimate): Taller or same height as me. Doesn't really matter. (I'm 5' 4") Age: 15-19. Personality Type: Funny, smart, curious, laid back, kinda nerdy, sweet, random. --This or That-- Older or Younger: older Romantic or Horndog: Both. Smart or Stupid: Smart. Really smart. Fat or Skinny: Not too skinny but not fat. Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular: Average build but moderate muscular-ness. I hate those over-built guys. It looks odd. Punk or Preppy: How about just being himself? The Big Picture or the Little Things: little things, but with a grasp of the big picture. Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present: I feel guilty when people buy me anything. So just flowers. And a big present on my b-day so I have time to buy something for him that is equally good/better. Mixtape or Burned CD: mix tape. Love or Lust: Love with a good helping of lust. Emotional or Just Not: Emotional, but obnoxiously so. Sincere or Jokester: Both really. Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet: Hot guys often know it and are obnoxious. Ugly and sweet. Sexy or Just Cute: If I liked him he'd be both to me. Arse or Abs: Both, Hair or Hands: Hair. Dimples or Eyes: Eyes are expressive. Biceps or Calves/Thighs: Calves/Thighs turn me on. Don't know why. Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd): As long as both are clean, I don't really care. Clean Shaven or Scruffy: Scruffy... I have such a thing for facial hair. Rugged or Prim and Proper: Something inbetween. Countryboy or Cityboy: City boy. Date alone or With Friends: Alone. Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause: Something inbetween. --Have You Ever-- Dumped a guy because he liked you too much: Yes. Loved a guy because he stalked you: Uh, no. Loved a guy because he hated you: No. Asked your friend's crush out: No. Lead a guy on for kicks:... yes. Asked a guy out purely because he was hott: No. Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend: Yes. Lied about not having a boyfriend: No. Lied about having one: Yeah... Cheated: No. Been Cheated on: Probably. Had a crush on a gay guy: Kinda. --Their Clothing(yes/no)-- Boxers?: Yeah Briefs?: Hahaha, why not. Hat?: Depends. Skater Shoes?: Ok. Pimp Shoes?: Only if he'd kidding. Band Shirts?: Yeah Vintage shirts?: Yeah Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?: Er... no. Ali O's shapless pimp sweater comes to mind. Erlack. Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?: Wha? Independent/DC?: Eh? S&M/Little Devil?: ? Fox/Thor?: Thor sounds cooler but I have no idea. Jeans or Shorts?: Whatever he's comfy in. --Be Honest-- Would you ever date a guy for his money?: NO! I feel bad when even my mom buys me clothes let alone a boyfriend buying me anything. Would you ever date a guy for his social status?: No. Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?: ... yes. Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better? Yes. Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?: No. Do looks matter?: Honestly, yes. Are you honestly scared of being dumped?: Yes. Does size matter?: Yes. If they don't take care of them selves and weigh 2y492759823753570982357298375982375 pounds, how are they supposed to take care of me or even care for me? Not meaning they should baby me but how can you love another person when you don't love yourself enough to lose your unhealthy weight? Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?: Probably. Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?: ... yes. Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be): You have no idea. I feel guilty and bad and evil and all sorts of things. Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?: Kinda. Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?: I don't mention it. Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?: No. I can tell when I look bad in clothes. Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?: No, I'm glad. Wanna be a virgin till marriage? Virginity isn't like a grand sweepstakes prize for hte first guy to put a ring on my finger. I don't care honestly. Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it? Yes. Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?: Yeah. Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?: Heck yes. Does this survey suck nuts? No, not really.

Hmm. Meow has gone back to the dark recesses from which she spawned. My hair is cut. I have bangs now. I like the bangs but I'm not to sure about the rest. C'est la vie. Spencer continues to correct every single mistake I make when I speak French. I wrote him a letter. If he sends it back with red marks all over I fear I might have to choke a bitch. And by bitch I mean 6'5" mormon. I love the kid but MAN. My hair smells really good. Flirted with friend at chinese restaurant where he works. Only problem about location is that his crazy co-workers and superiors seem to think we are getting married or something. They have no end of 'advice' for him, all in Cantonese. This sounds horrible but they have a meal called HAPPY FAMILY. I asked him about it, he said it was because it had all sorts of meat in it. I'm thinking they should change the name. Happy family of what? Cats? Yeah. He's fun. And isn't insane like the last Chinese guy I dated. But lets not get ahead of ourselves here.

Well, I was completely wrong about Camp Ernst. I loved it. I loved the people, I made friends, I had the time of my life. I miss it. Some random girl who I never talked to is IMing me from the place though. Weird. No one I'd normally talk to though. Some random moron commented on my journal. Pisses me off. Meow. Hah. Go forth and make fun of their spelling errors and idiocy my pretties! I'm itchy and need to pee. Good bye.

This is... Wednesday? Thursday? The 3rd or 4th day of Summer Vacation. I'm going to die of boredom. I'm going to the mall to get one of those Club Chalupa things. Yeah... I got to drive a little bit 2 days ago. It was neato. I'm going to die at Camp Ernst. Its official.

So, I am a crew member for the YMCA Camp Ernst. I will do janitorial work for free in exchange for free room and board from the dates of June 12 until July 2nd. I did this so I'd have the chance to bump elbows with interesting people and foreign people for 3 weeks. I did this so I'd have an escape from my house for the summer. I did not do this to be surrounded by obnoxious, rich, spoiled Cincinnati brats who are only here for their oh so important community service hours. I did not do this to be stuck on the outside of a BFF community. I did not do this to be the poor hillbilly girl. I am not a hillbilly. Yes, I mow the lawn. I have no servants, I will work minimum wage jobs to get through college. At least I'm going to college on merit and not on my dad's money. I was at the orientation today. The 4 people who didn't make me ill to my stomach, the attractive kid named Nate who skipped a grade and remembered my name, the friendly Twins, the skinny blonde girl named Emily... All of them are in different sessions. I won't see them. Its only May 15th. So I have a little less than a month to get together books and music and stuff to do in my down time to avoid these... People? Spoiled, nasty, preppy brats? My fellow Crewmembers and future best friends? Not likely. I hope the foreigners are nice. Because I don't think its a good idea to commit suicide while volunteering at a christian camp.

Well, I am. GO AWAY CREEPY PEOPLE!!!!!! ARGH. May I remind everyone here that except for 1 of you, none of you are remotely Japanese and the 1 guy who is somewhat close to it is CANTONESE! Argh, minivan.

You are not a baller. You are a highschooler. You shop at the mall. Florence is not the ghetto. Sorry. Love, me. You are creepy. Stop showing up behind me. Especially in closed spaces. Go die, kthnx. Love me. You look like a hot topic mannequin. Stop. No, seriously stop it right now. Its not cool... Its trendy. Thus- the antithesis of 'cool'. Really, how muc money do you need to spend to look 'angsty'. I pull it off just fine every day. Without the goth clothes. Love, Sara your friendly neighbor bitch.

Lordy lordy. Oh dear. I was quite the male magnet today. It was nice. I was feeling hottoday too. So one bloke was this kid named Ryan. He's absolutely adorable, still a bit short for a High Schooler, but adorable. Nice long hair, and a sweet face like he's the most innocent thing ever. He's so fun. Then there was my soccer friend from Into Soc. Hon. We watched the movie together in the auditorium as the rest of the school took tests. And eventually we ended up making fun of the movie. Lord of the Rings The Two Towers is a good movie, cinematic gold, but you can only sit quietly for so long in an auditorium of 200 people, you know? And we were quiet too. And sitting rather close. Twas fun. Then this kid in Science was digging me. Basically I was sex on a leash. It was hot. What fun. I had a great day. Even if I have to do testing tomorrow and it will suck. Stupid standardized tests. Only 3 more years left though, right?

There is a mysterious red sign above my journal. I wish they'd make it go away. I grow tired of the green this journal is. I'll add some pink. I have mowed soo much lately. Like 1/2 of a cubic mile. And thats alot of mowing. But I love to mow. Even if it bruises my palms. I have photos. Online. Here's a link- http://www.livejournal.com/users/fukai_mori Exactly. Scroll down a bit, and you will find them. Its exciting, eh? You know it is. Now I will put into action a new plan. This plan is...: Operation Bag A Guy. Operation BAG for short. See... its an ACRONYM! Owww my poor purple bruised hands. Later my lovelies

Rainbow of Icons by FreezingInTheSnoYour nameFavorite ColorBirthdayYour Pink IconYour Blue IconYour Yellow IconYour Green IconYour Red IconYour Purple IconYour Orange IconQuiz created with MemeGen! That was fun. A good friend of a few of my friends died. Didn't know her. Her body is on display in her highschool's... gym? What the hell? Well, I feel majorly for my Scott County darlings. I love you all so much and I feel for you. I'm cold and talking to a boy I like. He writes poetry and has long brown hair, looks like a cat, is in the play, and has a total thing for some girl hung up on a senior she dated for 2 months. Oh Catboy. I got a new phone. Its entirely to small. Oh well.

Raghladlafjdad. The guy(s) I like that are local are either: 1. Completely uninterested 2. Interested in some other girl. The guy I like that lives in Scott County just hooked up with this really, really hot flute girl. According to him. Pity. I'll miss making stupid ass jokes about my boobs and his little men. And the flirtation. He isn't going to state either. DAMMIT! RAGHADLFKJDALFJASLKFJALSDJS. I need to start doing something about the guys I like because if I don't... Stuff like this happens. Agh. I'll start with Alex because he knows probably. I always call him hottie and stupid shit like that anyway. I'm entirely upset and tired and really lonely. DATE ME!

LAST PERSON WHO... x. Slept in your bed: My cat, who is dead. x. Saw you cry: Ma mere. x. Made you cry: My cat by dying. x. Kissed you: No one. x. You shared a drink with: Amy J x. You went to the movies with: Hannah Felrath x. You went to the mall with: Ma mere x. Yelled at you: Joe G HAVE YOU EVER... x. Said "I love you" and meant it?: Yes x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: No x. Been to California: Yes x. Been to Hawaii: Born there x. Been to Mexico: No x. Been to China: No x. Been to Canada: Noperz x. Danced naked: Last night x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: All the time. Deja vu x. Wish you were the opposite sex: No. It'd be hard to walk around and function with a penis. x. Had an imaginary friend: When I was little. RANDOM TID BITS... x. Worst feeling in the world: Lonelyness x. Future son's name: Joaquim or maybe Augaine. Damien sounds nice too.. x. College plans: Probably UK. x. Piercings/tattoos: 2 holes in each ear EXTRA STUFF... x. Do you do drugs: No x. Do you drink: No x. What are you most scared of?: Being alone, pain x. What clothes do you sleep in?: Sweat pants, underwear, t-shirts, bras, nothing x. Where do you want to get married?: A big, huge church x. What do you really hate?: Stupid people, bitchy people x. Do you drive?: Almost x. Do you have a job?: I do alot of babysitting x. Do you like being around people?: I love people but everyone needs downtime STUFF... x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?: All to often. x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did?: Is the pope old? x. Are you lonely right now?: Yes. x. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: Imagine- John Lennon x. Do you want to get married?: Yes x. Do you want kids: Probably FAVOURITE... x. Room in house: My room x. Type(s) of music: Classical, rock, alternative, techno, club x. Band(s): Beatles, The Plastic Ono band, Longwave... x. Color: Green x. Perfume or cologne: Cologne x. Month: September x. Stone: I know what it is, just not the name... Its a type of agate with browns and greens and pinks in it x. Drug: Drugs are foolish and a waste of time IN THE PAST 72 HOURS HAVE YOU... x. Cried: No x. Bought something: Yes x. Gotten sick: No x. Sang: Yes x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: No x. Met someone new: Yes x. Missed someone: Yes x. Hugged someone: Yes x. Kissed someone: No, unfortunately x the ones that are true.... (x) I've Never Been Drunk (x) I've Never Had Sex (x) I've Never Smoked Pot (x) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex ( ) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (x) I've Never Crashed A Friend's Car HAHA (x) I've Never Been To Japan ( ) I've Never Been In A Taxi (x) I've Never Had Sex In Public ( ) I've Never Been Dumped (x) I've Never Done Cocaine (x) I've Never Shoplifted (x) I've Never Been Fired (x) I've Never Been In A Fist Fight (x) I've Never Had Group Intercourse (x) I've Never Snuck Out Of My Parent's House (x) I've Never Been Tied Up (x) I've Never Been Caught Masturbating (x) I've Never Regretted Having Sex With Someone (x) I've Never Been Arrested (x) I've Never Made Out With A Stranger (x) I've Never Stolen Something From My Job (x) I've Never Gone On A Blind Date ( ) I've Never Lied To A Friend ( ) I've Never Had A Crush On A Teacher (x) I've Never Been To Europe ( ) I've Never Skipped School (x) I've Never Slept With A Co-Worker (x) I've Never Cut Myself On Purpose (x) I've Never Had Sex At The Office (x) I've Never Been Married (x) I've Never Been Divorced (x) I've Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week (x) I've Never Posed Nude (x) I've Never Gotten Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them (x) I've Never Killed Anyone (x) I've Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner (x) I've Never Thrown Up In A Bar (x) I've Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire ( ) I've Never Eaten Sushi (x) I've Never Been Snowboarding (x) I've Never Had Sex At A Friend's House While They Were Throwing A Party (x) I've Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room ( ) I've Never Flashed Anyone (x) I've Never Met Anyone From Online

I just recommended someone here. Its kind of neat. Wow. How odd. I love boys. Oh dear.

:::sUrVeY ::: BaSiCs [ x ] Spell your first name backwards: araS [ x ] Are you a lesbian/queer? Nope. [ x ] Where do you live? Florence, Ky. dEsCrIbe YoUr [ x ] Wallet? None. [ x ] Hairbrush? Black and broken [ x ] Toothbrush? Light green handle, clean bristles [ x ] Jewelry worn daily? Usually one of those headband/choker things around my neck. [ x ] Pillow cover? Checkered (blue and white) [ x ] Blanket? Black with white and pink flowers. [ x ] Coffee cup? Styrofoam and says Starbucks. [ x ] Sunglasses? Generic walmart-brand black. [ x ] Underwear? Multicoloured green colour pallet bikini style. [ x ] Shoes? Blue and black slippers. [ x ] Handbag? I need a new one. [ x ] Favorite shirt? I love my orange TIGHT t-shirt that says 'I Hear F-Team' [ x ] Cologne/Perfume? Burburry Woman [ x ] CD in stereo right now? Moods: Nostalgia/Reminscence... I burned it and I don't know what to call it yet. [ x ] Tattoos? A fake butterfly on my hip. [ x ] Piercings? 4, all in the ears. [ x ] What you are wearing now? Dark blue marching band sweatpants, light grey longsleeved band t-shirt. [ x ] Hair? Flopping around my face, down to my mid back, brown. [ x ] Makeup? None wHo or WhAt (was/is/are) [ x ] In my mouth? Nothing. [ x ] In my head? My thoughts. [ x ] Wishing? That I had a signifigant male with which I could talk to/make out with/ be held by [ x ] Talking to? David H, an OOOH [ x ] Eating? My nailpolish off my nails. [ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? No one as murder is something I'm against. [ x ] Person you wish you could see right now? Any of my OOOH's, Hair Girl, Rennay [ x ] Is next to you? Scanner, big box thing, mouse. [ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month? State Speech Tourny and seeing my OOOHs running around in SUITS (that is so hot) [ x ] The last thing you ate? My nailpolish. Heehee. Name three bad habits you have: [ x ] Biting my nails [ x ] Eating when I'm bored [ x ] Being lazy Name four scents you love: [ x ] Guy cologne [ x ] Burburry for Women [ x ] Coffee [ x ] Rain Name four television shows you love: [ x ] CSI Miami and CSI Original [ x ] Futurama [ x ] Anything on VH1 [ x ] CNN morning news Name four drinks you regularly drink: [ x ] Water [ x ] Mineral water [ x ] Sparkling water with lemon [ x ] Ale-8 Name four random facts about yourself: [ x ] I'm 5'4" [ x ] My fingers are always cold [ x ] I really want a boyfriend [ x ] My cat just died about 2 weeks ago. EVER.... [ x ] Fallen for your Best Friend?: I don't have best friends, but I've fallen for good friends. [ x ] Been rejected? Hell yes. [ x ] Been in love? No, but something like it. [ x ] Used someone? No. [ x ] Been used? Probably. [ x ] Been cheated on? Not that I know of. [ x ] Done something you regret? Hasn't everyone? LAST THING/PERSON... [ x ] You touched? My mom. [ x ] You talked to? David H [ x ] You hugged? Mum [ x ] You instant messaged? David H [ x ] You yelled at? Al [ x ] You laughed with? Hannah F-rath [ x ] You had a crush on? David [ x ] Who broke your heart? Octavian DO YOU... [ x ] Color your hair? I died it pink once but got tired of it. [ x ] Have tattoos? Fake ones. [ x ] Piercing? Several [ x ] Own a web cam? No. [ x ] Have aol? Yes. [ x ] What should you be doing right now? Studying for Romeo and Juliet quiz, doing my French devoirs. [ x ] What are you listening to? My mother watch tv. [ x ] Can you do anything freakish with your body? I can manipulate my facial muscles to do odd things. [ x ] Chicken or fish? Fish [ x ] Do you have a favorite animal? I have a few. [ x ] Is ice cream the best thing in the world? No, but its up there. RANDOM [ x ] Who would your dream date be with (famous person)? That bloke who wrote Eragon. [ x ] Single flower or a dozen? Doesn't matter to me. [ x ] Silver, gold or platinum? Silver [ x ] Candle lit dinner in a restaurant or at home? At home. [ x ] Roses or wild flowers? Roses [ x ] Silly or serious romance? Both is best. [ x ] Do you consider yourself a romantic? I am a freakishly romantic romantic. [ x ] Shy? Not particularly. [ x ] Boring? Only when I'm bored. [ x ] The Lovey Dovey type? Very much so. [ x ] What have you done TODAY? Went to school, went to debate practice, performed in a band concert, cleaned, slept, ate, was bored, read... TODAY: [ x ] Laughed? yes [ x ] Helped someone? Yes [ x ] Dissected something? My salad. [ x ] Drank alcohol? No [ x ] Cut your hair? No [ x ] Kissed someone? I wish... No [ x ] Missed someone? Yes [ x ] Told someone you love them? Yes [ x ] Met someone new? Yes [ x ] Favorite Disney Characters? Mulan [ x ] Favorite fast food? Wendy's [ x ] Favorite book? Right now its Sloppy Firsts [ x ] Favorite song? Blowing in the Wind- Bob Dylan [ x ] What room is your computer in? This one is in the family room [ x ] What is your shoe size? 11 [ x ] What will you be when you grow up? Translator/business translator/teacher [ x ] What are you doing right now? Your mom. Well, this survey actually. I can't wait for forensics to be over, to finally snag an OOOH, and sleep.

The first mildly attractive, hotblooded young male to come by is mine. I'm going to die of lackonookie disease. Oh dear.

I love and grow tired of boys. I love the sweet, intelligent, kind, boys who take pride in themselves and their appearance. Who make me feel loved or are my friends without being creepy. I grow tired of the boys who are obnoxious and clingy and socially inept and follow me around and haven't heard the words exercize, moderation, or shower. I attract the latter group. This is really bad. I'm not ugly. I'm attractive, smart, mildly funny, I have a personality. Why can't I attract anything other than... The above. If anyone I know finds this I am so fucking dead. If you excuse me, I'm going to go prepare for National Forensics League Qualifiers by packing some clothes that accentuate my hotness (HA), copying bills, and finding my long lost bill that I can't find anymore. What happens in the foyer... STAYS IN THE FOYER.