Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion Of self conclusion in one simplified motion See the trick is that you are never supposed to act on it No matter how unbearable this misery gets

sometimes i look like a little boy. lately, i've been thinking about a lot of things. oh well..

I think about you all the time Happy pretty bursting colours in the sky day.

I keep having those headaches all over again. Hmh... it'll pass. I'm not a really big OC fan or anything but tonight's episode(which i accidentally discovered as i was looking for the tv guide)...was cute. Only because Seth is a dreamboat and Spiderman is one of my favorite films. I discovered this hip vintage shop in the South Side. It smelled like old books. Mhmmmm...vintage. I tried on a 60's prom dress. And purchased a Marheta clutch made in Rio de Janero. It's white leather with embroidered flower petals. I saw these wild bug sunglasses too. They looked very much like the ones Feta tries on in 'My Girl'. I'm thinking about coming back there soon and purchasing them. But blah blah, who cares about that.

I met a cute lebanese boy :)

*Prom was semi-fun. *I got a haircut. *I am hating Max. *School is done with in 7 days.

i lived in a big laguna-beach-type-style white house. and my significant other (not sure who it was) came to meet my family. my drunk uncle was there, and i was nervous that he was being embarassing. outside there was a car and i got taken for a drive. we drove into a mall. the car is now one of those display cars people try to win. for some reason people are after us. we are sneaky and escape. [my dream from last night]

My friend decided to start going out with this girl and feels like he can blow off anyone now. He asked if I wanted to go see Star Wars on Friday & i said yes, so he decided to forget about any plans while I sat like an idiot at home. asshole. On another note, I have prom in 4 1/2 days. eeeee!!!. I want a digital camera. err. he confuses me so much.. 8:37:13 PM

Current mood :: Lovesick. Current music :: "Eskimo", Damien Rice. Current taste :: Mint. Current hair :: Long, straight, up in a pony. Current clothes :: Tank top & shorts. Current annoyance :: My painting. Current smell :: Computer smell. (Only I can smell it...) Current thing I ought to be doing :: Doing Algebra II homework. Current windows open :: AIM, Sitdiary, Myspace, Gettyimages. Current desktop picture:: Noah, from "The Notebook", in a canoe. Current favorite band :: Postal Service or Smashing Pumpkins. Current book :: The Boyfriend List by E Lockhart. Current cd in stereo :: Nothing. I got my iPod :) Current crush :: Your mom. Current favorite celeb :: Alex Frost Current hate :: Punkass bitches. Smoke? :: Ick. Do drugs? :: ... No. Have a dream that keeps coming back? :: Yes. It has the same person in it. And it's always about the same. Read the newspaper? :: Every once a while. Have any gay or lesbian friends? :: Yes. Believe in miracles:: Sometimes. Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? :: It's possible. Consider yourself tolerant of others? :: Yep. Consider love a mistake? :: No. Like the taste of alcohol? :: About as much as I love the taste of ass. (That's a no.) Have a favorite candy? :: Reese's Peanut Butter Cups Believe in astrology? :: Yes. Believe in magic? :: Eh, no. Believe in God? :: I guess. Have any pets? :: Nope. Go to or plan to go to college? :: Yes. Have any piercings? :: Just 2. Hate yourself :: Not really. Have an obsession? :: Shopping. Have a secret crush? :: I'm not so sure if it's secret or not...Yeah? Care about looks? :: Yes, quite a lot. Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? :: Perhaps. Have you ever been intoxicated? :: Yes. =LAST THING YOU= Bought :: Little Nippers' pizza & breadsticks. Ate :: Cookies. Drank :: Camelot Natural Spring Water. Read :: A pamphlet on Anorexia Nervosa. Watched on tv :: MTV. (I keep it real.) =EITHER/ OR= club or houseparty :: Club. drinks or shots :: Drinks. cats or dogs :: Meow. single or taken :: Single. pen or pencil :: Pen. gloves or mittens :: Mittens. food or candy :: Food. cassette or cd :: Neither; iPod. :-) coke or pepsi :: Diet Coke. (I like to keep it real.) this or that :: That's hot. =WHO DO YOU WANT TO= kill :: Tom Sporrer. (He's a punkass bitch.) be like :: Mother Theresa, or my mom. avoid :: Bitches. And hoes. talk to :: No one. Maybe Matt. hug :: Emerson. He smells pretty. HAVE YOU EVER= Dated one of your best friends? :: No. Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? :: Unfortunately, yes. Drank alcohol? :: ♥ Done drugs? :: Perhaps. Broken the law? :: Noo. Run away from home? :: Yeah. To my aunt's house, if that's even running away. Broken a bone? :: No. Played Truth Or Dare? :: Yeah. Been in a fight? :: Sort of. Come close to dying? :: Almost, yes. Most embarrassing CD :: I love my CD's. They're not embarrassing. Your bedroom like? :: Tiny, stuffy, hot. Your favorite thing for breakfast? :: Cereal. Your favorite restaurant? :: Olive Garden. What's on your bedside table? :: Alarm clock, and glasses. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? :: Ice cream. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? :: All of them. I'm a crybaby. What is your biggest fear?:: Dying of a broken heart. Or drowning. What are you most insecure about? :: My abs. Do you ever have to beg? :: I always get what I want. :P Are you a pyromaniac? :: Actually, yes. Do you know anyone famous? :: Nope. Describe your bed:: Unmade, soft, comfy. Spontaneous or plain? :: Spontaneous! Do you know how to play poker? :: No. What do you carry with you at all times? :: iPod, lip-balm, Chanel lip-gloss, post-its, a pen, wallet. What do you miss most about being little? :: The carefree lifestyle, being constantly happy, not having a broken heart. Are you happy with your given name? :: Yes. My name is sexy. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? :: Priceless. What color is your bedroom? :: What was the last song you were listening to? :: Disarm. Do you talk a lot? :: Sometimes. Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? :: The fake ones, yes. Bastards. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? :: Of course. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends? :: Whatever. Holding hands? :: My favorite. Are you a tease? :: Hope not? Shy to make the first move? :: Yes. WORD ASSOCIATION= Rubber :: Ducks and condoms. Punk :: Ass bitches. Green :: Submarine. Peanut :: Butter jelly time. Wet :: Gym shorts. Hay :: Rides. Cold :: Sudafed. Steamy :: Sex. Freaky :: Friday. Rain :: Kisses. Bite :: Oh snap.

I'm so vain. ... why why why. Because I decided to not show up to school on Friday, didn't get all of my books and notes for the weekend. A nd today we had a quiz or a test in every class possible. Yikes. Am I ever prepared? On a sexier note. I might go see Tom Petty & Black Crowes in 37 days with Bobso & his girly, and other kidsos. Decisions, decisions...

My life is still boring. I (finally) purchased an Ipod (mini, that is) on Sunday after work. $216.00, but fucking amazing. I am so excited for summer. I love it so much. So many things you can do, ah, simply cannot wait. Prom is on the 27th of this month. All of my friends want me to go. I just don't know...

SHOPPING LIST sprint picture cellphone mini ipod new closet

rest in peace. 4-22-05 i've never had to deal with somethign like this before..i dont know what to do. i miss him so much.........

First saturday detention. Let's just say it wasn't the Breakfast Club. I had to call off work to go to it. I'm so glad my boss wasn't in early. (My work starts at 7:00 AM,..she gets there at 6:00. That madwoman.)I didn't have to tell her why I could work, so that was swell. I had to put up with the teacher being incredibly creepy, yes, but I got most of my Chemistry homework done, so huzzfuckingah. Jono walked me home. I hadn't talked to him since like last year. He's still the same ol' silly Jono. It was raining.. I wanna learn to bellydance :)

I can't believe life. I intimidate him. and him and him, too. :/ sdf$3##*@ ... KARMA.

I was at a small party. And my soulmate came and said "I came all this way just for you." He had a lilac polo shirt with black and white stripes on. His hair was golden brown and shag-like. When he would caress my neck, I could smell how beautiful it was. It was too real for me.

It's been a horrible day.

School is such a bore. Muchly looking forward to the easter break. Which is a total of 5 days,.. that's including the weekend, that we have off. Huzzah! Went to Plato's Closet. Sold shit. Bought shit. That's how it is. I love the orange tea from starbucks. :) it's completely joygasmic. I've just realized that I have major jealousy issues. How gay. (hate that word) Uhhh. I'll do my best to not be a bitch so much.

Easter break is going well. I still haven't gotten over what happened 8th period, Wednesday. I get a massive headache just thinking about it. And I keep thinking about it. So I get massive headaches quite often. Work is boring and ... I need to suck it up and stop being such a whiny baby. We got a new PS2. I almost pissed my pants when I saw it. (I was really excited about DDRMax.) I just noticed how much dust accumulated in between the keyboard keys. Ick. I don't like to conclude my entries.

So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past. 21404747 I wish I could just rewind and press play.