Lately, you've become my biggest distraction and I cannot thank you enough. I keep telling you you have me on cloud 9 and the only thing i'm scared of is creeping up to the next level and not being able to handle it. I already told you I was going to be subtle about me being so gay and I don't expect anything out of it. Yet, I can't help but smell your Boston hat at night, smile when you're the first & last person to text me everyday and the fact that you tell me "I like your gayness which in turn makes me gay which then makes you gay and it's a never ending cycle" only sinks me into the hole more and more. It's true when Marisa tells me that this is what I wanted to feel like but now that I have it, it fucking terrifies me. How can I get this gay and come on a tad bit strong? I'm keeping my distance to the point in which I won't get attached but to the point where I'm still content. You have to bring down your wall before I do honey Never again would I put myself in a stupid position but so far you're doing good, I salute you.