you keep it all in until you get home, then you go to your room and you get on the phone. call your best friend cause you think they can make the pain end. try not to cry until you hang up, then go take a bath and practice some math. when you get through, go back to your room, shut the door, and get back on the phone. dont think about the past and try not to look back. you miss him so much and you'd give almost anything just to feel his touch. you cant let your paretns see you cry because you know they'll ask you why. lock your door and lay on your bed. still cant believe that your shrink put you on meds. all you wanna do is stop living. stop breathing. you just want everyone to stop leaving. you've got no idea what to do. no thoughts. no solutions. you've got no clue. you dont know where you belong and the world is just so wrong. you dont know what to believe and you've ended up with so much grief. you write him a note before your all gone. your apologizing for what you did wrong. you slit your wrists and overdose on pills. your wondering what he feels. your slipping away and there's nothing left of your good days. you said it was too much to continue this pain. your funeral was so sad and it was in the rain. he got your letter but by then it was too late. he wished he knew what you had been feeling because he was feeling the same. he had missed you for so long but he could never bring himself to call. he always thought you'd be okay. he always thought there would be another day. he could have saved you but he just never knew. you loved him more than anything and he loved you too. he tried not to cry and he tried to keep it inside but he just couldnt take it anymore. he slit his wrists and he overdosed on pills. he always swore he'd be with you and now he's got the chance. his grave is right beside yours and he doesnt cry anymore. when the laid him in the ground he was smiling cause he knew that now it was okay and he could be with you.