well life seemed better for once, but that changed pretty soon. Fights at school between two of my friends are taking there toll. I got maybe three hours sleep last night and my Father is playing the big guy again. He yelled at me last night and said that i was not human and that he can't talk to me because i don't understand. there are two other teenagers in the house can he not take his maddness out on them? Life always seems to get good then bad why? life must continue and my blood will flow through my veins.

dad was yelling this is what i wrote with my blood and tears. A father I once had A defender gone My walls have been broken So my heart is left on My head is still throbbing my tears I still can taste A childhood belief torn and battered what a lying waste Where are you my hero? Where are you my friend? A life that’s means nothing Is this the end? My teddy bear has been shot in the woods Now a beast I do not know is staying here My childhood has ended my life is in the past Where I go from here is up to me at last A stranger came to stay The victim he would say What a load of bull My life was still on track Then it turned into crap He is right you are wrong What the hell is going on? IT’S YOUR FAULT IT’S YOUR FAULT Am I the one to blame? Am I such an evil person? I thought that he would be there To defend me in the dark How wrong was I I’m your daughter does that mean nothing? I don’t have a father Let us talk sought it out Yeah when you want to I’ve had enough this rip Will drive us apart. I tried to have my say but you Just cast me away To many times to forgive I can’t keep going on You rules I will obey You food I will eat But at the chance I will leave And I won’t come back You have a new son now Defend him as you have A daughter you have lost And you don’t give a cow Be happy I have been behind a mask I am unseen A act it is so you are content Will your life’s work Well fantastic a piece of shit you have created You always blame me ripping away a stone Now my wall has crumbled I believe I am the Problem just as you wanted. A stone heart is all I have To keep my feelings at bay Maybe someday the right person will Come and break away the decay. A father I once had A defender gone My walls have been broken So my heart is left on My head is still throbbing my tears I still can taste A childhood belief torn and battered what a lying waste

wat 2 say life is getting better the to friends are now talking a bit and i have found a new group where everyone gets along. my father is still being him and freedom is being taken bit by bit. Life is good at i thank the goddess will it become bad????