i really need to hang out with more people that arent on a constant mission to get drunk or get laid... its fucken annoying... i dont go places with them because its always going to lead to the same thing... someone getting fucked up or someone hooking up with someone that everyone else in the group has had there way with... i need more friends my own age.. i have a few.. they are more mature and think things out and thats nice... but a majority of the time i'm surrounded by young people that only have the two above mentioned things in mind... they'll go somewhere they dont want to go and be around people they dont want to be around because of the possibility that they could get drunk or laid... i dont understand the logic.. why go somewhere you dont want to go?.. why be around people you dont want to be around?... personally if i dont want to go somewhere i'm not going to go.. and if i dont want to be around certain people im going to avoid being around those people... are people just getting dumber? i dont understand i dont get it i am confused and angry and sad that these people are so fucken stupid... i dont know what to say or do to get them to realize that getting drunk and or laid are not the only options to having a good time... People are stupid especially the younger ones i wish they would just fucken grow up rather than waste there life away chasing meaningless forms of entertainment that in the end can get them in trouble ...... GROW THE FUCK UP!!!

The Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them. When in another’s home, show them respect or else do not go there. If a guest in your home annoys you, treat them cruelly and without mercy. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal. Do not take that which does not belong to you, unless it is a burden to the other person and they cry out to be relieved. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself. Do not harm young children. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask them to stop. If they do not stop, destroy them.

i know that it will never work or even happen.. and hoping for such a thing is stupid, cus hope gives you a false sense of reality that it may happen when you almost know for a fact that it wont.... hope leads to sleepless nights of wondering when the impossible will happen.. hope is a lie... i'll say right now hope is okay in some circumstances but for others its just worthless ... the two statement may contradict a bit but thats the only way i can think right now to put it in words..

if i loved myself i'd be shooting you

What’s the point in dying When the world thinks you’re already dead? What’s the point in crying With the rain beating down on your head? What’s the point in lying If no one believes what you say? What’s the point in dying If you’re already dead anyway? Skold

...... ... fuck it