damn it damn it damn it great way to start out an entry right?... meh just fuck it... i seriously...i just keep on screwing myself over. i continue dooming myself! funny isnt it? i used to believe i was ok. that he wasnt right because of his mind. augh...fact is its just like mine...im doomed. if i just had ignored my feelings. just supressed them a little bit more... it seems as if he feels the same way. i could be wrong. im tired of the distance. four hours away! perhaps the old saying is right. if you love someone enough, you could let them go. he needs someone to be there for him. next to him. yes. ill let go... haha once engaged to him...no more. he has found another. hopefully they both are truley happy. both of them have an affluent life :)... yup... slipped away amor y paz, paola