i dont know i ve been feeling kinda scared andi dont know why i feel as if my jokes are a bit much or a bit childish i feel like im not gonna grow out of it not many poeple know my sensitive side not many poeple know how i really am but one person and her names ashley she completely understands me but thats not what scares me itmy friends, im scared about saying something to much and them getting mad at me and not being my friend i think richards getting mad at me alot because ive been calling him straight and its a tired joke but it scares me the most is how girls dont see me as a real person they see more as someone who just or that how they make me feel thats why i do the things i do thats why i such stupid things because i dont want to be someone thats jsut there i wanna be a real person i wanna be treated like girls treat richard with care and respect not like me which is with fear and disrespect its a life that i didnt want but i choose well that it peace