Things have been good and bad in equal measures I reckon. My hand has been a right mess and I'm sick of it looking disgusting and hurting now. It'll teach me to be more careful when I'm making coffee I suppose but I feel like it's kind of ruined the past week and a bit. It was nice having Jak here but we didn't really get up to much. It was nice to have a week or so of sitting around relaxing and playing on the wii, but the plan was to do some really good stuff the next week which was kind of ruined by the fact I couldn't drive. Stupid hand. We ended up going to Liverpool to see the somewhat disappointing Klimt exhibition but I don't think that made the whole visit worthwhile for him. I don't know. I hate feeling like my life is trivial and boring in his eyes. Maybe I'm imagining it. We had a huge argument whilst he was here about communication while we're apart and it was never resolved. I don't think the next month or so will be brilliant. He annoyed me earlier on the phone because we managed to have a nice conversation about his day and then as soon as I started talking about stuff that had gone on with me he completely switched off and started being stupid, and then after that just wouldn't make conversation at all when I asked him if he was better and whether he was going to the doctor's as he said he was going to, or when I asked him if he could let me know when he was thinking of moving back to Manchester. I made it pretty clear that I wanted to know for our sake not just mine, because I thought he might be annoyed or upset if I moved in with Jim and Jason before he got there for any reason. But he won't make any decisions. He won't even make a decision to not make a decision to allow me to make a decision about my shit. And it was just really annoying. He spends nearly all day every day with his mates and they obviously never have a serious conversation for more than two minutes so suddenly he's completely unable of doing so when he's talking to me. It's really frustrating. Although to be honest I really can't complain about him not keeping in touch so I will mention that in his defence the past few days. I've had several nice texts, which are really nice because then I know he's thinking about me even when he's busy. I like getting texts and it is really rare. I just wish he was a bit more sensitive to the fact that I want to plan my life seeing as I'm not spending days and days messing around with my mates having an amazing time and I'm pretty much trying to pass over the next month as quickly and as easily as possible. And it would be a lot nicer if I had a direction to aim to; a date or at least a week where I knew I could be back at uni and moving in, and seeing Jak again. Because I do find it difficult to spend three weeks or a month apart unless I have a day to count down to. Otherwise the days just seem to stretch ahead into nothingness and I get bored of what I'm doing. I can appreciate sitting on my arse and working my way through stacks of novels if I know there's an end to it after a defined period of time. Gah. Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to a sculpture park and an exhibition of Japanese art in Wakefield with my mum and her friend, which should be nice. And maybe later in the week I'll go to Preston shopping with my mum. And I think on Friday we're going for an allnighter at hellbound, which will be fun. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~