things are really bad. work is really stressing me out. i can deal with stressed. but this work thing is to much. shannon h and dont get along. i could quit. but what about richard. i really like him. my friend said i should ask him out. im not afraid of rejection. but i am shy. if i quit ill never see him again. but that shouldnt be a factor. i plan to ask him how old he is again. ill get him to tell me. what if im to young. i want to move. i dont like it here. i get paid tomorrow. maybe ill commit suicide then. i dont see the point in living.