So yes, thing's are slowyly getting better. Sometimes i find myself smiling at nothing. It's quite enjoyable if you ask me. I love having a good laugh or a good smile. Lately I've been thinking, I got to stop whatever I'm doing that makes others unhappy or unsatisfied with me. I came to realize, all I wont for my loved ones is to be happy, to make them happy. All this time I feel like it's been ME ME ME or I I I. I want to try and be more selfless, to be a better kind loving person, to truley be pure and innocent...I just want to see my friends happy, and for that I have to give up my own needs, my own self satisfactions. I also need to stop giving people first judgements, i find myself doing that to much, very bad habit. I want to see others happy, espically the ones I care for. I love you guys so much, you don't know how much you all mean to me. "Just smile, so that I may sleep well tonight.."