wow...it's been a while hasn't it? well...I had some more dreams....they..tend to come and go....but ...I...guess I'll type them now...umm...they were all..kinda..intertwined..and I'm not really sure what came first..but I'll try... -Books, lights and dolls- I think it started...I was...in an...apartment building...I think...but it had the feel of a library too...like a study group or something...there were other people...there was a pile of books on the table..maybe an inch or so thick each...and...I don't have time to finish so I'll get to it tomorrow..wow...it's been like five days since I started this entry...oops....well where was I? Right, the books. They were all different colors, the ones I remember were green blue and purple...they were old so the color was kinda faded...anyway...one of them was on Wicca...and that was the book I wanted to see...I couldn't reach it because there were too many people blocking the table..when I asked someone to hand it to me they said, "Go ask Sean.." and pointed to a boy of maybe 21 standing behind a desk reading something...he had wavy blonde hair...kinda dark blonde...to his shoulders...so I asked him if I could use it...I had the sense that they belonged to him and he was a respected presence there that everyone looked up to...he told me, " I think someone's using it...you'll have to ask.." so back to the table...I ask...no-one really responds exceptto hand me the book...there weren't many warm receptions here..I curled up in a corner with the book and set it in my lap...it flipped open to where there was a board stuck between the pages...it was a thin board, diamond shaped and black...it had a pattern on it, "v" shaped and made up of seperate squares going from largest to smallest, brightest to dimmest..and three moons above that...it was rather pretty to look at...shiny...the pattern and moons were white...a kind of luminescent white...I don't think it was paint..it was more like a resin than anything else...I looked to my left where there was a dark hallway and across from that a set of stairs..I felt that there was something dangerous down that hallway...something a loathed and feared...then I turned away from it and looked back at the board in my lap...I ran my pointer finger over the square pattern toward the right, the dimmer side...a shadow began to manifest above and behind me... I remember having the paniced thought that I already had a dangerous shadow down the hall and that I didn't need another, so I quickly moved my finger back along the "v" all the way to the brightest square...which in turn created a ball of light...it was rather pretty and reminded me of a star...and though I knew it meant me no harm I also knew it too was dangerous, though it meant to protect me...I also knew that while it could protect me it couldn't defeat the shadow....I showed it to Sean and a girl whom I believe was his sister...we were in danger and he sent me off in a hurry...then I ended up in a place that honestly resembled some sort of twisted Dr.Seuss nightmare...and there were dolls...like life-size dolls...they reminded me of souless humans...I was trying to find help...or...something...defeat this shadow thing....I don't know..all I know is I was afraid and I still had the board with me...I ended up dressing like one of these dolls in a hope to be able to get around easier...but whoever it was that made them so me as a malfunctioning doll and set some people after me...my only protection was the star thing but I soon found it had a short life and i had to re-create it numerous times...at the end of the dream the people sent after me were close..the star died..and I could not re-creat it...that was it...