this house is not a home

Listening to: three days grace
Feeling: placid
i fucking hate my mom and sister. i want them to both fuckin drop dead...i dont give a fuck about them. i seriously wish i didnt have a damn family. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i am so pissed off right now. i hate it. everytime there is an argument or a fight... I am to blame, the only one in trouble! it is so gay and i just hate it. my sister is a fuckin bitch and barely a fuckin highschool graduate because I helped her and its like 3 years after the year she was supposed to. shes just a fuckin bitch who got pregnant and my parents are all "hail her" when i cant fuckin stand her! i was sitting on the couch and she picked up a fuckin ball and threw it and hit me in the face so i throw it back and it bounced off and i was like "FUCK YOU BITCH" and my mom was like dont fuckin talk like that or use that tone and i flipped her off. and she was all cussing me out and was like dont even fuckin call me for a ride home tomorrow. whenever you think about calling just think about this [and flipped me off]. and i am the only one to be blamed every fuckin time. my "mom" didnt say one damn word to my sister when she hit me in the face with the ball. and my sister has the nerve to talk shit about me and the school i go to about being "book worms" which is such a stereotype and isnt even true! so i was like "fuck you and your ventura high education you didnt learn shit except how to get fucked and have a child" [and she isnt a good mother to top it off as well]and my mom was all like dont fuckin say that and dont say anything like it [talking to me] while my sister didnt get told shit. I FUCKIN HATE HER! so much. her and her fuckin husband! i wish i didnt even know my family, and i wish i was alone or something...i just want out and this hell hole is gay.
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i didnt know u felt that way about em' or would say something like that. ever.
really. it surprised me.
in an whoa sorta way.
Christy.
[Anonymous]
that sucks im sorry and i hope things get better for you