How come it seems whenever you start to cry, even for the stupidest reason, you can't stop?
I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.
He didn't ask yet.
But I'm still pretty happy.
This is I would say one of the best Christmas's I have ever had.
Fuckin A
Am I being overdramatic about this?
I don't want to be.
But it pisses me off.....a lot.
There's nothing like friends.
And Love.
Don't lie to me. That's one thing I cannot stand.
Even if your just messing with me. Don't lie to me.
I want to help so bad. But I don't know what I can do. I try. I try to make things better. I try to say things that will help. I don't know what I can do. I listen. I won't leave. I try to get that through. I don't know! I hate that. Why can't things just be good. I want her to be happy so bad. I don't know what I can do anymore.
"My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard..."
HaHa yeah.
"I'll keep you my dirty little secret....."
Ugh I hate feelings and wierd moods.
MMM I dont know.I think I'm losing my mind.
Maybe it's just this week.
Seems like nothing is going good.
School sucks, Amber left, home stuff and just I dont even know. I just don't feel good. I can't even explain exactly how I feel or even why.
Maybe I'm overwhelmed with stuff. I guess Cause half the time I feel like crying.
I dunno I guess it will pass?
I'll stop complaining.
I think I may go to homecoming. That is if Nikki and Lenore go and/or I have date.
Which means I have to get a dress and I haven't worn/bought one for like 4 years. So I think I'll need help with that.
Oh and I think I like R.J?
Ugh I dunno
Alot of stuff sucks
Oh yeah and Sheldon IMed me last night and I don't know why? mmm whatever.
Ugh school is starting soon and I have alot of shit to do but of course all I do is sit around and not get anything done, well it is partially my parents fault.... still no car and mom is sleeping and dad is working.
I hate sitting around though, I need a life I guess. I will get a job in two months since the video store is now hiring so they better be in two months too.
Uhmm I guess I could write more but that would take a long time because I guess I have alot to write kinda?
"and even when your hope is gone, move along move along just to make it through"
So uh maybe I lied a little in the last entry about the whole thing with Sheldon.. I don't know though?
But yea ok well I guess Kayla is kinda trying to hook me up with some kid.. or I dunno he's gonna hang out with us tuesday I guess. So hopefully he actually is cute like she says.
Hmm school is starting soon which i s bad and good I guess. Some classes look like they will suck plus some I might not have good friends in them and one of my lunches too.
But yea I hope this year goes well... maybe I'll go to homecoming or something? Dunno yet.
So I've officially decided I'm done.
Done with Him (Sheldon)
I don't care anymore.
I'm sick of everything with that situation or whatever.
I'm moving on.
Plus Matt is very cute :)
I think I could definetly see myself liking him.
Who knows maybe luck will be on my side soon.
Oh yeah and today was a very good day
Thank you Chey.
<3
You could hold my heart.
It's all yours if you want.