Ok, so I'm feeling alot better. I'm not sure how much truth that the IM had in it from Jake, but I do believe that he doesn't like me. That's fine with me. It's happened before, but in a slightly different way. I did feel the same way, vulernable. It's like I just exposed a big part of me and there is no way to undo that. Probably because that's exactly what happened. I'm basically over it, but I'm not totally giving up on him, yet. I believe that most people should get a second chance. And Jake is one that is going to get one. Oh well, thank you all for your help!