it happens to everyone i'm guessing. does someone out there have any advice? i understand why he doesn't like her, she's not a likeable person to some. but notice, she's not just an aquaitence, she's my best friend. and he makes it so hard. like today after school i said goodbye cause i was going to hang out with victoria, my best friend. said i love you, and he doesn't even say it back. what the fuck is that? is it nothing? thats what i'm thinking. but i found out later on that he's actually mad over nothing. i was walking away with victoria and josh egan who is friends with my both my boyfriend and victoria. my boyfriend offers to smoke josh up, just kind of like a hand signal, like hey wanna blaze? and josh is lkje oh give me a minute guys. so obviously that pisses off victoria because she knows he's just doing it to make her mad. the thing is why does he have to go out of his way to do that? doesn't he realize that it makes me more sad than mad? i guess i really have to show him that but none of this matters. it all boils down to the fact that i went to a rave, when i knew he didn't want me to, with victoria. and it bothers him to no end. i really fucked up and things are never going to be the same because i had to go. i felt like i was getting held back, it freaked me out. so i went. fuck it. its over now. i fucked up. i always seem to fuck up. and now i all iw ant to do is cry. and cry. becuaase i love him so fucking much and i hurt him. i just feel like a complete shithead. he's never intentionally hurt my feelings. augh GOD AISEF;LJWKJF WAIEOUYMTIAWJAWKLTJEFAW EF