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  Age: 17
  Sex: girl


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  so since the last time i...
  i've lost the only love worth...
  make way, make way for the...
  why deny that you and i lead...
  perfect.
  happy mother's day.
  cause anywhere's better than...
  deep inside, consumed with...
  10 Years & Fair to Midland...
  karma's kiss of withering...
  [sigh.]
  find the words to make me...
  [sigh]
  what the fuck ever.
  i'd be lost without you until...
  goodbye my almost lover.
  go ahead, tell me you'll...
  so yeah, it's the New Year.
  [so, uhm. its been a while..]
  [only time will tell if i am...
  [its just like him.. to...
  [i think i'm better off alone]
  10.28.07 [7:44pm]
  [this heart, it beats only...
  [you say goodbye, i say hello]
  [still pretending.]
  [well feeling a bit better..]
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  [lost and bleeding]
  [finally this stupid site is...
  [coming out of my cage..]
  [leave me and...]
  [tomorrow is a different day.]
  [if only time flew like a...
  My Chemical Romance & Projekt...
  [i was debating..]
  [happy birthday Harry Potter!]
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  [well its not this hard..]
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  [then why are we dead?]
  [soo. its a lil late...]
  [well its been, like...
  [lets go back to dreams for a...
  [chorus concerto!]
  [feel the rain on your skin..]
  [uh. k. back to dreams.]
  [but i haven't missed you...
  [whispers hello i miss you...
  [i must be running out of...
  [i'm shutting you out. leave...
  [like. 5 days later.]
  Friday the 13th.
  [woohoo!]
  [just a quiz.]
  [i breathe deep and cry out..]
  [sushi?]
  [in my field of paper...
  [i've had everything i can...
  [today has been...]
  [and everything falls back...
  [what if i fell to the floor?]
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  [everything i had to say..]
  [with your eyes...]
  [head hurts like fuckkk]
  [imagine if this all came...
  [in my circle of regrets]
  [ahh! my nipple!]
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  [sigh]
  [♥]
  [urr.]
  [eh]
  [♥]
  [valentines day]
  [twilight]
  [meant to live]
  [poem]
  [i'm so far gone now..]
  [soo yeahh.]
  [ppl are such fucking dicks]
  [and if your heart stops...
  [autumn's inner maiden growth]
  [bruhahaha]
  [we're leaving here tonight..]
  [so this week has been..okay]
  [trust the voice within]
  [yes, another dream]
  [2006 overview]
  [..can't get enough..]
  [*sigh* yet another dream]
  [frustration: the epidemic]
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  [another dream and its...
  [hah! today's break was fun]
  [hahah! omg this was like fun]
  [and in the end, i guess i...
  [close your eyes, its easier...
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  [happy birthday...
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  ["i am not afraid to keep on...
  [tired]
  [AND IF YOU GET TO HEAVEN!]
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  [this weekend was like....
  [ohmyfrickngod]
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  [a tribute...and some words...
  [ugh. the good, bad and...
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  [guess who got WHAT today!!]
  [yeahh. its my thinking time...
  [hmm another odd dream.]
  [woww. lol. i think i got...
  ["there exists a melody..."]
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  [that's hollow and breathless]
  [♥]
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  [ughhh]
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  [art council]
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  [btw. the music is playing in...
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  [...grr. more frustration...]
  [i've lost all doubt in a...
  [♥]
  [ok! now an update on this...
  [finally! its working...
  [ok...yea. so this thing...
  [so yeah.]
  ["emotion fills the sky"]
  [sweet strawberries and grey...
  [have a lot of things on my...
  [just please. just please...
  [wow i am BLONDE!]
  [omfg.]
  [i don't know what i did. or...
  [bloop. bloop. *CRAAAASH*]
  [sweeet]
  [at Bri's]
  [clock is ticking and i'm...
  [clock is ticking and i'm...
  [i'm screaming it]
  [well i'm feeling better....
  [oh boy is it mixed]
  [list of my favorite 20 bands]
  [uhmm]
  [fuck it all]
  [lost]
  [ugh fuck this]
  [one word survey]
  ["and you take me over, over...
  ["runs deeper than my bones"]
  [damn it all]
  [he humped the chair. not her...
  ["in your heart.."]
  [Life On The Murder Scene!!!!]
  [a lil hectic and a lot of...
  [therapy]
  [only 3 more days!!]
  [why?]
  [new layout]
  [stripper at the talent show]
  [internet violation]
  [damn 4 days to go..]
  [i don't care anymore]
  ["paint you my soul.."]
  [happy 24th Bert :D]
  ["change my attempt..good...
  [finally got out!]
  [fun fun fun]
  ["when you're taught through...
  ["its funny how things just...
  [damn getting bad at updating...
  ["and now take a trip with...
  ["fire at will!"]
  ["think happy thoughts"]
  [bitch..]
  [they're just hurting us...
  [i need my therapy]
  [rocked out again]
  [A-B day]
  [aw Kimmi's leaving]
  [Happy Chinese New Year]
  ["accidents happen"]
  [i don't wanna get up!]
  ["with this vile to drink i...
  [I HATE MY BLADDER!]
  ["while i'm still the same.."]
  [damn this congestion]
  [hehe]
  [eh..]
  [and its back again]
  [lmao. i'm a dork]
  ["erosion clouds my brain"]
  [yay i saw Underworld!]
  [it really is Friday the 13th...
  [another boring day i guess]
  [well i'm not dead yet]
  [damn it i'm failing 2 of my...
  [another one of those damn...
  ["return to me salvation"]
  [sigh]
  [yeah. they lied.]
  [after winter break...]
  [alsdkjfasdfkasdfk]
  [she's doing it again..]
  [start of a new year]
  [happy new years]
  [mom-me bonding]
  [motherfucker]
  [to the ppl who live in this...
  [quizzes just for the hell of...
  [so far so boring]
  [crissmas rock!]
  [crissmas eve]
  [eh.]
  [went to Hot Topic]
  [stop changing the goddamn...
  [eh. and a quiz]
  [boring]
  [i got my HIM cd]
  [blah]
  [wtf?]
  [writing poem]
  [WTF]
  [get me the fuck outta here....
  [jump jump]
  [boredom]
  [not too good]
  ["a loaded gun complex.."]
  [bullshit dude.]
  [the silence is killing me]
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  ["hand in mine into your icy...
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  [icecream for breakfast]
  [375th Thanksgiving..]
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  [my lazy lil self]
  [haha sexy man]
  [Harry Potter: Goblet of Fire]
  [just swell..]
  [i'm not done being evil...
  [HAHA]
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  [so much for defending lil...
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  [Hawthorne Heights cd]
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  [immaturity]
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  [understand this]
  [elephants piss needles]
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  blank
  [i'm 15]
  blank
  [blah]
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  [gr. family pics.]
  [gerardness!]
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  blank
  [tick tock]
  blank
  [haha. gerardness]
  [uh]
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  [15 more days]
  [uh oh]
  [uh. catfight on the bus]
  blank
  [haha]
  [god damn it]
  blank
  [bummed again]
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  [uhm]
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  [♥]
  [lol]
  [finally friday]
  [nmhr]
  [uh]
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  [idk]
  [nothing really..]
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  [ha. i'm a dork.]
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  [just wtfe okay?]
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  [9:33]
  [shitty]
  [doubts]
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  [bri's birthday, part 2]
  [bri's birthday, part 1]
  blank
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  [tick. tock.]
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  [uh. wow?]
  [Greenville]
  [lazy]
  [fucking. stupid.]
  blank
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  [k. minor setback]
  [a few days later..]
  [hyper!]
  blank
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  [uh. sure]
  [bummed]
  [last day of middle school]
  [perfect timing]
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  [graduation ceremony..]
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  [a few days...]
  [hugs]
  [does it really matter...
  [am i really that different?]
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  [wtfe. more arguements.]
  [idk why]
  [yearbooks]
  [yeah yeah wtfe]
  blank
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  [cried. and it hurts.]
  [omfg. spoiled lil brat]
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  [my ppls and me]
  [god. mothers]
  [dad's birthday]
  [just lazy]
  [just stupid]
  blank
  [cried]
  [wow. i'm actually happy for...
  [okay i guess]
  [feverish]
  [idk anymore]
  [weird]
  [haha i'm so evil]
  [this is bullshit. seriously.]
  [not really blue. but blue...
  [just fed up]
  [what the fuck ppl??]
  [can you please adopt me?]
  [frickn frustrated]
  [everyday's so lonely now]
  [still bored]
  [just bored]
  [problems]