So today I got in a car accident. I rearended a mini van with my ford ranger truck. yeah. it sucked and of course it was on a busy street. fuck y life. so this very handsome looking 20 year old steps out of the mini van and asks if I am okay, and at this point, I just wanted to die. 2 weeks earlier Alex rear-ended someone with this same truck and had the bumper fixed, so I am so screwed. I waited for ever in silence, well actually I was freaking out about how much my mother is going to kill me. the whole time this beautiful guy just stood there and smiled. I wanted to ask him what the fuck was so damn funny. and why the hell was he happy I wrecked the back of his fathers mini van? so It sucked, and my mom is going to kill me. and my body hurts really bad. and his name was douglas.

Andrew.

Nate got a haircut. looks cute.

again it feels like summer, because I finally started working. sort of. Its been raining so Ive been out on the boat a few times but i still go in anyways. but woah, the beautiful people I get to work with. Its so much fun. I feel like a princess, but I need to learn names. Last summer it took me the whole time to learn them. I need to come up with less nik-names and find out what their actual names are.I wish that they weren't all so much older though. but they are all so sweet to me. saw a really bad movie today= nick and norahs infinite playlist. just awful. but last night I watched crash and it made me extremely uncomfortable. It was odd, I didn't like it at all. it was a great movie, but I just dont like it.

minor breakdown today, not really sure why though. It might have something to do with the fact that I can't sleep anymore. its weird. I used to always be the best sleeper, and now I lie awake all night. My whole summer is panned out day by day until I leave for college, and then it goes on until august 24th when I start classes. overwhelmed a little I guess, but really just want to get there, most excited about cheerleading though!

Minus the weeks of rain; it feels like summer or at least it did the other night. It started out by hanging out with trevor. yipee. Then andrew came and picked us up. I couldn't have been more happier. I was never a really brave person but I was going to salmon falls for the first time, and I was scared, so I wore something cute. bikini, short cut-off jean shorts and my favorite tee and sweatshirt. so andrew picks us up and we head to Gorham to pick up Kyle. I'm in the back seat and I can see myself in the rear view mirror perfectly, which means andrew can see me. and I can't stop smiling. we go inside and I meet kyles parents which were really nice. his moms a little intense but I like them. so we go to salmon falls and andrew doesnt really jump at first but I wanted to so i convinced him to. Kyle and trevor jump off the bridge and I sat next to andrew on the ledge and we watched. Nobody had towels so we went back to kyles to dry off and I talked to kyles mom some more. shes nice, but when i mentioned nate, clear;y she doesnt like him. and it made me think about him and this thing I have for nate. we then went to smiling hill farms to see kyles sister and andrew was really sweet and held the door for me. it was really cute. we then went to the mall to get something to eat and he sat next to me. hes just so cool. nothing like nate. I just want to be around him, not like my feelings for nate at all. so then we screwed around the mall cops in the parking lot for like, forty minutes and I sat in front with andrew. he was just so cool. It was such an amazing night. The one night I actually had to leave at a certain time to pick up my dad. I could have hung with him forever. hes just the kind of fun and good natured person you could be around all the time. He was nothing like how trevor and luke described him to be. I like that he doesnt smoke all the time an doesnt let anyone presure him into it. Kyles really cute to. I have put all of trevors friends in order and here it goes: #! andrew then nate, kyle, lukas, and then trevor. I just want to see andrew again. soon.