---soo yeah, i just whipped up this song in LITERALLY 3 minutes...for some reason i write songs soo fast if i really mean them. this is talking about how i've just lately been hating myself...i don't know why, i just have been. and also i'm always isolated from everything that goes on in my family and i somewhat want to be apart of it all, but then once i socialize with them, i want to get away. anyways, enjoy
And as the chains of truth try to pull me back, I still pretend that it was a dream
How is it something so beautiful can turn to dust
How can it just die and decay, leaving the wounds, forcing me to carry on
And i'm not sure this will fix itself
I need to accept the fact
That it's over
---and this is something me and sam just wrote on the bus today...hehe...i like it :-) we're gettin' better at this! but it's not really finished on that 2nd verse...
sharp chills surrounded my body penetrating my heart
and i heard my scream echo all around me
i never knew my eyes could create such a flood
my heart stopped beating for a moment as i stood shaking
your icy breath mixed with mine as i tried to take control
i never felt death so close to me as i did now
chorus
i'm so ashamed to feel your presence
to know that i, did this to you
all you wanted was attention but
i so selfishly threw you away never to look back again
i felt sorry for myself as i could
sense your eyes peering deep into my flesh
i heard the creaks on my stairs, thought you came back
but i knew it was just all in my head, my mind
making me feeling like i really wanted you here again
but that would only cause more pain
but i followed downstairs to find you
moving the potrait on the wall and
i kept my silence and slipped silently back
afraid of what you do to me if you
found out i was the one to cause this suffering
we both now and forever face
chorus
i'm so ashamed to feel your presence
to know that i, i did this to you
all you wanted was attention but
i so selfishly threw you away never to look back again
i felt sorry for myself as i could
sense your eyes peering deep into my flesh
just to see you again would mean the whole world
cuz you're not dead yet because you
still leave footprints on my soul
---and 'dis is something me and sam wrote together...i'm surprised how awesome it came out!! it's about this girl who killed her dude and feels guilty about what she did to him as he comes back to haunt her...and she feels bad about it and blah blah blah...we based it on what happened to me and chelsea *the breathing in my room*
---and that's wut i have...i wrote those first three lines at my g-ma's house when they just POPPED into my head and today i just got around to finishing it up...soo yeah...and it is based on what i feel...