I think me and Ian can almost be civilized again. I know he's never going to like Leyland, seeing as I basically dumped him to go after Leyland, but hopefully he can atleast be nice to him. I'm not sure what i'm even doing with my life. I know that the life style with Leyland is not completely what i need right now and probably isn't very good for me considering my family history of addiction but I feel good when i'm with him. I also feel less awkward and shielding of myself being with him know that he's had as much bad shit happen to him in his life as I have, but we party way too much. Atleast this week we only actually went out last night to the amateur strippers at the zoo or 'black wednesday' as we call it in our circle of work friends, and just chilled the other nights. I know my friends don't really like Leyland, but thats probably part them wanting me to stay with Ian and part that he gets a little crazy when he drinks and shit. I think this weekend just me and him are going to his cabin:) it'll be fun to be alone and not trapped at my apartment or his mom's house.

well i'm going to peace out

wendykins

What, am I doing, with my life.

Every get in a rut? I feel like i've been in a rut my whole lifebeing held back by my up bringing and were I came from. Who would I be if i had resided in Winnipeg my whole life? I really wonder about it alot to a degree that i think it starts bothering me that i have no idea. Most likely I'd probablyt be dead already knowing me. My roommate always says i'd have been one of the girls that torture lesser girls and 'glam' but really i've never really been that way. I like my t-shirt collections and i like my bermuda shorts and my studded belt. Yeah. I listen to fall out boy, the academy is, from first to last, panic at the disco, but i am not punk, and don't think their punk, because i believe punk, and rock stars and anything real is dead, and has been dead since way before i was born, so i'm not even going to try and figure out when exactly music went to shit.

I also have a thing for the eighties. nothing excites me more than cramming my feet into my waaaay too small size eight, spike heel grey ugly ass slouchy 'leather' boots, i love it, and the funny part is, the outfit that i put together like a year ago to go with these boots for era events...is like 'cool' now or some shit like that....

Well, while i'm ranting about anything and everything possible i'll start in on singers of the day. ok. deep breath. you can't play an instrument. have never held on. you can sort of sing...and you look good in some chopped of piece of ass shirt. and there you have it. every female artist who's made it big in what? 20 years? and if it is an all female band that actually have the brain capacity to play an instrument they'll never make it big because thats not what people are looking for and usually their music isn't 'mainstream' enough because well the music for their songs isn't what generated from a computer or where ever it comes from. mars.

I'm just a rage filled sonofabitch.

I'm off to be a wanna be punk now or what ever it is that I apparenlty am

piece out (lindsay style)

well...I've lived in the city like 3 months now, me and my boyfriend had our 6 months on oct. 1st, i have worked at fedex for like 3 months and orange julius 1 month. I work 10 hours total each day monday to friday. i have to be on the bus at 8 in the morning to go to polo and get home from fedex at 10 or later...i'm starting to think i'm crazy. no wait. i know i'm crazy. i'm a complete wack job thats for sure.

Wendykins

wooo! my 18th is tomorrow and fuck i am bored tonight!

so heres a beautiful survey for your viewing pleasure

.: x Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down what it says: there were other things you may not necessarily know or - oh that sounds like an exciting book

.: x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? big ass printer

.: x What is the last thing you watched on TV? ooooh ellen yesterday morning

.: x Without looking, guess what time it is: 5:15 pm

.: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 5:22 pm

.: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? the little airconditioner that could

.: x When did you last step outside? What were you doing? um at like 4:30 to take the deposit to the bank

.: x Before you came to this website [started this survey], what did you look at? at someone diary?

.: x What are you wearing? pants and a sweater

.: x Did you dream last night? Yes! it was really fucked up

.: x When did you last laugh? I laugh all the time

.: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? office shit

.: x Seen anything weird lately? my mom...

.: x What do you think of this quiz? it's the shit?

.: x What is the last film you saw? madagascar at the theatre watched grind...again at home with ian

.: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? faster car, with big ass stereo system...drooling on keyboard

.: x Tell me something about ur self that no one knows? I like big butts and i cannot lie? lol

.: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? less assholes.

.: x Do you like to dance? of course, shit you should have been me bustin a move at safe grad...it was hot...

.: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Marcella!! hahaha

.: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Sham...or Wenick...

.: x Would you ever consider living abroad? oh i dont' know, with all the nice places and traveling, might be to much for me...

.: x What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? what up homes? I got one of my home boys keeping you're place at the bar of eternity warm...

I would like to point out that i'm not just bored, but FUCKING bored! Oh my god! vicki moved away to the city this weekend and i can't wait to move now...it's so boring here! it's 7 pm and i'm like...i have nothing to fucking do...and ian lives like 30 minutes away so i can't just go over there any time during the week i want...well i guess i could but he's kinda busy on the farm and shit...uh and i have to wait til night time to talk to him!

So i totally graduated. well i had enough credits to graduate since last semester and i some how made honor roll. imagine that. didn't get any awards at grad though, not surprised. didn't apply for any. All of grad was awsome specially the party. made an ass of myself on the video but hey that ok! woo

wow, awsome long weekend! spent all weekend at the lake with Ian and my peeps! hee hee, me ian ryan and mich went to this family thing drunk...there was a few people mad at us, me and ryan are the evil family members and ian and mich are out evil boy and girlfriends! oh well, it's all behind us!

went swimming yesterday afternoon while drunk it was awsome and stained the part of the cabin while drinking, totally awsome.

me and ian have been going out almost 2 months and i don't even want to dump him, impressive right? well it is for me. i'm usually tired of a boy by the 2 month marker, maybe i'm finally old enough to just want the person i have...instead of everyone, or maybe it's because ian is way more awsome that anyone i've ever gone out with or had anything to do with! heeee, ok i'll stop now!!

wendy

-|Basics|-

-What is your name/nickname? Wendykins, Monty, Bubba...i could go on forever

-Hair colour: brown a little blonde hair too

-Eye colour: hazel

-Gender: female

-Height: 5'4"ish

-Lefty or righty? righty, but i use my left hand alot

-What you are most likely to be stereotyped? i'm an alcholic, i'm a chronic, i talk like a valley girl alot, i wear bright colors but not in a girly way...i'm just...me

-Location? at my mothers right now...usually at home at ryans with the doggy

-Age? 17...just...3...more...months till i'm legal

-Heritage? english, a little scottish and irish..may explain alot

-Are you big on politics? only when i was in history last year now i pay no attention again

-Pets?[list them all] live with my cousin he has a dog named buster, I have a bunny, names monty and my mother has two cats, bob and franky

-Any piercings? 3 in my ears, my lip some day

-TatOOs? [If no, do you want any?] yeah woodstock on my lower back

-Do you wear glasses? contacts, all the time, never wear my glasses, EVER

-Do you have freckles? yeah, mostly on my arms, few on my face

-Single or taken? totally taken

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-What are you wearing? hoodie, jeans

-What is your current mood? um, nervous feeling, not exactly sure why though :S

-What are you thinking? about Ian, and my easy personal finance test in applied tomorrow, next year

-Drinking: nothing surprisingly

-Talking to: was talking to vicki

-Doing: wasting time before work

;--RanDoM--;

-Do you think that you are CooL? I get along with the "cool" people but I try to stay away from big events..i get in trouble at huge parties, i'd rather party with people i know won't stab me in the back

-How about weird? yeah i'm totally wierd, specially when baked

-Are you on AIM right now? msn messenger is way better man

-Have you ever been called a slut/whore? yeah probably by my friends all the time lol

-Ever broken the law? um, duh

-Do you do drugs? I haven't smoked in a month, well except maybe saturday, i can't remember! lol...haven't done shrooms in a while either...

-Ever gone bungee jumping? sure haven't

-Ever done the shopping cart stunt? no, we just ran at each other with them in brandon and when they hit, it was really loud so we ran and got back in the car lol

-Have you ever tried pot? nooo, never...yeah, i totally have

-If you did, do you regret it? not even for a second

-Do you eat the purple skittles? no, i save them for my imagenary friend....wierd

-What does your username mean? nickname my friend used to always use for me

-Do you like dancing in the rain? sure

-Have you ever watched a solar/lunar eclipse? yeah i dont' know

-Do you do a lot of stupid stuff with your friends? oh fuck yeah

-Do you eat the crust on your bread? only if it wants me to (yes i do)

What do you REALLY think about lime coca-cola? i don't know?!~

-Do you use smilies a lot? yeah i can't help though "jsut cause i'm smiling, doesn't mean i'm happy" god stoned kerry is funny

-Are you a big flirt? sometimes

-Have you ever fallen out of a treehouse? hmmm, probably

-Ever gotten in a marshmallow fight? no, but i've been in a cheerio fight..that was one crazed night

-Ordered anything off of Ebay? naw

-Are you a redneck or are any of your relatives? yep, but there from like Dryden so they can't helpt it lol

Ever been arrested? not yet

-Do you think that Michael Jackson really did it? oh probably

-Do you remember the old 90's Nickelodeon? totally

-Do you wear converse? no, it's summer, so i i'll wear nothing but my rider sandals for the next 6 months probably

-Does it take you a long time to get to sleep at night? soemtimes

-Have you ever watched porn? apparently at a party one night, but i think i may have passed out

-Do you know someone who is anorexic or bolemic? used to be, don't think she is any more

-Are you afraid of the dark? depends what i'm on...

-Are you a comic book collector? I own one comic book...

''`Getting to KNOW You`''

-What makeup do you wear routinely? mascara and eyeliner always, and a little shadow

-Where do you like to shop? lots of places,

-Are you a vegan/vegeterian? yeah...right...i like steak too much

-Are you outgoing or shy? i like to think outgoing, but i'm shy sometimes...

-What kind of music do you like to listen to? anything, rock, punk, classic rock, hip hop...country, like i said, anything

-Do you play any sports/on a team? um, not really

-Are you rebellious? i bend the rules...

-Does coffee fuel you? makes me alittle crazy and jittery, apparenlty 8 cups on an empty stomach...bad

-Is there anything about you that stands out physically? i'm pale.

-Mentally? my brain works

-Do you believe in a life after death? sure

-Do you believe that there are other lifeforms out there? lets just say, there is no way that we are the only 'intelligent' life form that exists

-Do you have a whacky sense of humor? i'm kinda twisted

-Do you play any instruments? i have a guitar...can play a little piano

-List your siblings. none

-What is your motto? With the lights out, it's less dangerous?

-Have a whacky/weird talent you want to share?[please do] um....i can be really creapy

-Do you have any double jointed parts of you? not that i know of

-Is your hair long or short? quite long

-Do you use labels to describe people? what kind of labels?

-Do you think that Bush is a good president? do i look like I fucking care?

-Whats your most embarrassing moment? um, i dont' really get embarassed that easy, usually just laughed if off and forget about it....this isn't that embarassing but i just put a staple (both sharp ends) into my pointer finger, 20 minutes ago while on the phone with Ian...wow. good for me

-Is your room messy or clean? mostly clean

-Are you racist? Or have you ever felt racist before because of maybe something that happened to you? not really

-Ever won any awards that you'd like to share? um most improved at Tae Kwon Do, twice! yea! kicked your ass

-Do you have a job//ever had one? The sentinel Courier

-What do you think the meaning of life is? To grow up hating school, then to grow old hating work, and then to be old hating life?

-List all the videogame consoles that you own: NES (i'm wearing a nintendo shirt right now, god i'm a geek) and a playstation

-Are your parents divorced? no they just don't live together and my dad has a girl friend...duh

-Do you/have you ever cut? don't have to, the bunny shreads me enough as it is

-Do you think that people understand you ? I'm very misunderstood

-Do you consider yourself to be unique? just like everyone else?

-Do you collect anything/own a collection of something? beer bottles..

-Do you swear a lot? fuck yeah

-If so, what word do you use the most? fuck...shit...i don't know, whatever

-Have you ever told yourself that you couldn't wear an outfitt because you thought that you were too fat? I don't know? i'm kinda a little too thrown together to stop to like even look in the mirror most mornings lol

-Do guys with long hair turn you on? how long is long?

-How about guys with shaggy hair? yeah shaggy can be hot...ok so shaggy hot...long totally not...

-What is one thing that you really regret the most? "I would rather suffer from 100 disapointments than 1 regret"...It's like, could i regret that any less?! I don't even think so!

:||Favorites||:

-Color: hawt pink

-Place: The lake

-Movie[s]: Out cold!

-TV Show: The  oc

-Actor: dime off of going the distance and pig pen off of out cold...

-Actress: i don't really know...ummm....

-Season: Summer! for sure

-Flower: none

-Place to think: At home when i'm drinking

-List your 10 Top Favorite Bands or Singers:

Our lady Peace

Billy Talent

Nirvana

Papa Roach

Green day

haha THE DARKNESS!

lil jon and the east side boys

Seether

Steve miller band...

Liz Phair all the way!

-5 Things you want to do before you die:

find someone that will marry me even though I have little circus freak hands and smell like cabbage...

join the pro motocross circuit

get the heck out of pilot mound and dissociate myself from the paper

own a top of the line mac

make millions of babies

****List your top three fears:****

Rejection

Buried alive in a casket full of bees, spiders, and a boa constrictor. woo that'd be an awkward situation

that girl that crawls outta the garbage bag near the end of the grudge coming and getting me in my sleep...yeah. right.

-Who are your 6 closest friends?

in random order:

Kerry

vicki

mich

Ian

ryan

linds

and a whole lotta more

-What are two goals that you want to accomplish before the year is over?

1. do the marathon and not die

2. not put anymore staples through anymore fingers

Gosh, it's like have we even been going out?! i feel so much comfortable with Ian than i have with anyone else i've ever gone out with. Our one month is on may 1st, and i don't hate him and i'm not plotting how i'm going to dump him, it's like, has that even ever happened before?! I don't even think so!! yesssss

ugh, erin and keiths wedding is the 2nd weekend in June, then my uncles wedding is the weekend after that...and then grad is the weekend after that...my freaking god, enough church time?! yessssss, grad, i can't wait to get out of this shit hole. not that i feel trapped here or anything...no not at all. worst town ever.

heee, Ian is such a cutie, lol, god i'm gay, but seriously, my mother is seriously pissing me off these days, it's like, get off my back, i don't even live with you anymore! you can't tell me what to do! you have no control over me! your hissy fits have no effect on me, except maybe make me even more angry! you're a stupid bitch, and i will never live with you again!