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Risky love |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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Love is risky
A lover is a risk taker
Loving children is risky, Marriage is risky,
Loving people of other nations is risky,
Loving people of the church is most risky.
The more we love the more likely we are to get hurt.
Jesus took the risk of loving and was crucified for it.
But what is not acceptable is for us to hide this beautiful talent of loving in the ground and refuse to take the risk of loving/
We have this treasure
Its not about playing safe because the greatest risk is doing nothing at all.
So, who is God calling you to love? |
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July 27th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
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not much has changed. She is sleeping around again. she is with some guy named terry who is so close to her i can hear him breathing through the phone. god i hate this. sitting here knowing exactly what is happening. and i know tomorrow she will lie right to my face and tell me nothing happened. its funny kinda this time cuz i know its happening and he is married. she is such a whore. I cant believe i let myself fall for her charade. this is my pathetic excuse for being alive. will someone else please come and rescue me from this cuz i cant escape on my own. i;ve tried. she just drags me back in kicking and screaming. i try you know. I really do. I try to find someone else. I have many times. more times than i can count. its just maybe no one is attracted to me. maybe im not the kind of guy you bring home to your parents. maybe im destined to be alone. or maybe not
maybe i have to many dreams of living a normal life with one person. maybe im too young. but i look at my friends and my ex/s and they all look happy. and honestly it makes me sick. i see everyone running around being happy with the one that loves them for them. and it makes me mad. but not just mad jealous. oh the jealousy that overwhelms me. i think i am going mad. honestly this is worse than the time i tried to commit suicide. i know now that i am meant to be alive but for what purpose. to make others feel superior?
no no no that isnt a purpose. i know what im good at. im good at making people laugh. and not just laugh but laugh at me. and i can make a girl feel special. i make women blush and get people to laugh at me.
someone told me i had a pretty face. thats gotta be worth something. but what do i do with it?
forget the rest of them. just look at me. just accept me for me. just know that this is me. |
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June 8th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
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I just want to sit down and cry. I wish i had the courage to just slide that knife into my skin and show all those bitches how i really am feeling. dont tell me you love me. dont tell me you know how i feel. dont tell me you understand. cuz you dont know me. You dont know shit! Fuck you! I am on this downward slide to the fucked up part of the world that you hear about in grade school so the teachers can scare you away from ending up like people like me. Well fuck everyone. Nothing is working for me. Perhaps other psychos have some advice for me.
I cant sleep at all. I smoke cigarettes, pot and drink as often as possible. I plug sleeping pills. I like experimenting with assorted meds i find around the house. the only thing that is straight is work. but even that is shit. Im gonna kick sawyers ass in a day or two if he keeps talking to me. fuck me |
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I am a total and complete asshole... |
October 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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No one should ever be my friend.
When people get close to me, I always rip them into thousands of pieces. So please don't be my friend.
I am selfish. And I dont deserve anyone to be close to me. |
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Ahhhhhh! |
January 3rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath i would apologize for bleeding on your shirt... |
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Christmas Break |
December 21st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Whooo! I get to paint the youth room over break yes!
I am excited whooo!
Party time
However much to my dismay I have to spend time with my sister and her boyfriend
Well he isn't bad but her Man I can't stand her
Merry Christmas |
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Catalogs are Crap |
December 20th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I forgot what I was going to write About so I will just hit enter untill I remember
oh I was going towrite about how crappy the project I should be working on is.
we have to make a 9 page cataloge and it is crap I am doing mine on Franklin Covey because we dont have anyohter ones at my house I am so bored Whawatkodslhgnlksah |
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By the way |
December 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I meant that I was losing weight
Stupid Genuis
Geez people these days I'll tell you
Some days |
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Feeling Fat But Loving it |
December 15th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I feel so fat right now it isn't even cool.
I happen to be 180 pds right now.
Oh yeah I broke it huh huh.
whoooooo |
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Yes I stole this Haahahahaha |
December 14th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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[Marital Status]
Single
[Shoe size]
12-13
[Parents still together]
yes
[Siblings]
Four
[Pets]
Two poopies and a kittie
FAVORITES
[Color]
Brown
[Number]
2.6263
[Animal]
the great Squirrel
[Drinks]
Unmade Koolaid with Sweetener/coffee
[Soda]
Dew or Rc Cola
[Book]
Da Vinci Code
[Flower]
The ones that dont die
DO YOU
[Color your hair?]
When my sisters tie me down
[Twirl your hair?]
yeah
[Have tattoos?]
The rub offs
[Have Piercings?]
No
[Cheat on tests/homework?]
yes Hahahaha who hasn't
[DRINK/SMOKE?]
I drank once or twice.
[Like roller coasters?]
Scared of heights
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]
Yes Underwater
[Want more piercings?]
Maybe
[Like cleaning?]
I clean all summer so during school I hate it
[Write in cursive or print?]
both, but my cursive is shit
[Own a web cam?]
No
[Know how to drive?]
Yeah
[Own a cell phone?]
yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?]
When they unglue my fingers
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?]
All the time
[Considered a life of crime?]
All of the time
[Considered being a hooker?]
Jeff Bigolo the Male Gigolo
[Lied to someone?]
Yes
[Been in love?]
Thought I was
[Made out with JUST a friend?]
no
[Been in lust?]
hasn't everyone?
[Used someone]
yes
[Been used?]
Yes
[Been cheated on?]
Yes
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]
yes
[Stolen anything?]
yes I won't say here
[Held a gun]
yes, and shot it
CURRENTS
[Current clothing]
Pumpkin shirt and Jeans
[Current mood]
Excited and happy(kind of) Snow day
[Current taste]
Nachoes and Pepsi
[What you currently smell like]
Dirty clothes(I found my pants on the floor... Again)
[Current hair]
Ummm... Lets say NOT GOOD!!!
[Current thing I ought to be doing]
homework
[Current cd in stereo]
Staind
[Last book you read]
Speak
[Last movie you saw]
Death Becomes Her
[Last thing you ate]
Nachoes
[Last person you talked to on the phone]
Jon
[Work out every day?]
Hahahahahahaha I almost died laughing
[Believe there is life on other planets?]
Tinfoil hats are handy when woarding of aliens
Remember your first love?]
Yes
[Still love him/her?]
-----
[Read the newspaper?]
Sudoku rules
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]
Yeah
[Believe in miracles?]
yes
[Wear hats]
Yes comfy
[Hate yourself?]
at times
[Have an obsession?]
Yes
[Collect anything?]
Shiny objects
[Have a best friend?]
yes
[Close friends?]
tons
[Like your handwriting?]
no
[Care about looks]
no
LOVE LIFE
[First crush]
First grade I got "married"
[First kiss]
---
[Do you believe in love at first sight?]
I did
[Do you believe in "the one?"]
No
[Are you a tease?]
NO
[Too shy to make the first move?]
Yeah outgoing on the inside/shy on the inside
ARE U A
[Daydreamer]
yeah
[Bitch/Asshole]
Fuck you
[sarcastic]
When aren't I?
[Angel]
Only if you want me to be
[Devil]
Hahahaha no
[Shy]
When with strangers
[Talkative]
yes |
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Funny Stuff |
December 13th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Eggs-The Perfect food- except for the part of coming out of the animals Ass.
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Staind |
December 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
You in your shell are you waiting for someone to rescue you from yourself.
Don't be disappointed when no one comes.
Don't blame me you didn't get it
I already told you, that falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the problem
If you don't believe that you can find a way out you become the problem, become the problem.
Don't blame me you didn't get it
You, all alone, are you waiting for someone to make you whole?
Can't you see aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine.
I already told you, that falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the problem
If don't you believe that you can find a way out you you solve the problem, solve the problem.
Falling is easy it's getting back up that becomes the problem, becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find a way out
Then you've solved the problem, you've solved your problem.
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Geeks in Shorts |
December 9th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Right now, I am in Computer Apps. and I am working on Mario's stupid Sudoku. This thing is so hard, And it is driving me crazy.
Grr.
I can't stop working on it
I have been working on it since breakfast
Dammit Mario you shouldn't have given me this thing.
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Bricks |
December 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I feel like a brick has been lifted off my chest. hmmm... I like feeling relief
My hands are finally warm again and I think I will call somebody |
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Ugly |
December 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don’t know
Money it’s no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?
We are dirt, we are alone
You know we're far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it’s far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we're far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?
Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?
I don’t care, you don’t care
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I’m bitter, you’re angry.
You don’t care, I don’t care
You love you, like me
Are you Ugly? |
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