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why does this happen to me! |
August 27th, 2008 @ 10:55am |
Listening to: inside out- eve 6
Feeling: discombobulated
i swallow my pride to talk to you, thinking you're gonna explode on me for just existing and conversing with you. who the fuck do you think you are? i waited for you. i told you yet you pull this shit where you're not sure and that you dont wanna be a secret. i didnt say you were gonna be a secret. FUCK.
that afternoon/night/morning was nice. i told you it felt like a dream. not real. we were an us again. we were able to just be. even kevin just blahhed. i mean we watched weeds. and then just ate. i made you ramen. and last night, well you know, i remember what you said, you wanna be with me forever.
then prove it. |
| 88 hit(s) |
(4 comments) |
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those blasted dreams |
August 14th, 2008 @ 11:34am |
Listening to: The Ballad Of San Villanuevas
Feeling: hungover
well atleast hungover in the mental sense.
He was talking to me about how he went to mexico with his cousin, denisse. and how he had fun doing things and it was strange cuz we saw each other at a value plus. strange huh? i wish i realized it was a dream, just to kiss him again. No, it's not my hormones, just i miss him. now i know how he felt when we broke up the first time.
he didnt wanna let go. and now i cant. |
| 8 hit(s) |
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oh yes.
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daria!! |
August 2nd, 2008 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Last Kiss - Pearl Jam
Feeling: dejected
wow i really need to get on with my life. Joey and I will probably finish the buffy season tonight and start on number three! I want him to watch How I Met Your Mother as well though. He'd like it, it's funny and adorable and really freakin bad ass.
Cant see: i don't wanna know that he has someone. i need to get over it. Just shake it off. He even messaged me for the rest of his things. i should take a flippin hint! fuck. I wish my brain wouldn't think of all the crap. i mean he did alot. just slowly going insane.
this escape from responibility has been great, the rockband, guitar hero, many denny late nights, and texting constantly. OH i need ot look for my bluetooth. i have it and i dont even drive. it took so little to burn off that money. grrr. |
| 26 hit(s) |
(2 comments) |
oh yes.
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Gerta rouse |
May 14th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: saves the day- of cars and calories
ok. i guess i'm going at it alone. sucky but i can wait. he's just too much.
too much lazy. i'm trying to change...
so listen i'm not trying to prove anything at all here.
but don't you think that maybe this time you were wrong? |
| 35 hit(s) |
(0 comments) |
oh yes.
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First |
November 30th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Get over it- Ok GO
Feeling: accomplished
i gave it three days. i kinda worked. but i caved since i knew it sucked to ditched so i picked up and took somehwere yet it led to spendign the night. not intended.
Now i know that i need to be more careful. well i can't find him today but i know it's ok. we need the weekend. |
| 54 hit(s) |
(2 comments) |
oh yes.
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look different |
November 17th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: n/a
Feeling: abandoned
I do. it's just you don't really care... and i told you your salsaing on my last nerves but you dont care... I feel like one more stupid, rude, CARELESS thing you do, i'm just gonna leave... and never come back... i might leave to mexico for a year and i want too feel like i can come back and know you will have changed and finished school... |
| 44 hit(s) |
(0 comments) |
oh yes.
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while |
October 5th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: N/A
Feeling: abnormal
i can't help it... i use my phone as a reason. yet i think i'd talk to you if i had it... why do i still like you? you never did anything for me.
but well.. he would give me his future but he won't show the rest of him he needs to develope.. |
| 71 hit(s) |
(0 comments) |
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I am |
December 18th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Elvis Costello- Green Shirt
damn he's still at it. nothing for close to a month, then BAM, now he kicks my books. |
| 68 hit(s) |
(1 comments) |
oh yes.
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breed |
December 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: You and Me- Plain White Tees
I really should stop it. I mean i know he doesn't but the way he talks. Damn. |
| 73 hit(s) |
(1 comments) |
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July 27th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Stress can breed a psychopath
You’re all that calms me down
I forget that I’m a mess when you’re around
Please can you be home tonight
Say its not over yet
My human tranquilizer
My pretty percocet
I’ve got ants in my pants unless its you in them instead
Oh baby I was a faker before you
Tomorrow brings a busy day
Its overstuffed with time
I need to hear you breathing on the line
And you can be closed minded
If you have open arms
Why can’t I ever work my wily charms on you?
And you still weren’t home when I dialed up the phone in the evening
So I’m twiddling thumbs and I’m wondering what’s this I’m feeling
I may be strong below the belt
But not with what I thought and felt
That blissful knight I knelt
Between your legs
Between our heads
Between our hearts
I was a faker before you.
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| 71 hit(s) |
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you to know |
June 21st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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really have to see you. so we can do what we're scared to do. you'll threaten that you wont ask but just take but i know you better and you dont want to hurt me. force isnt your thing |
| 73 hit(s) |
(1 comments) |
oh yes.
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hey |
June 4th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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yeah. it was a dream. he waas kissing my neck |
| 70 hit(s) |
(0 comments) |
oh yes.
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boy |
May 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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just sit next to me. you sitting across isn't an excuse. i'll listen. i don't care if your brother is staring at me. he's not you. i didn't wake him up when he fell asleep on the bus. he didn't pick my book who was influenced by the human boy, he didnt steal my seat as a weird joke. i liked it when you told that dumbhead for calling me bi. i wished you talked. i'd bite your lip |
| 60 hit(s) |
(0 comments) |
oh yes.
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B-fucking-lank |
May 10th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Red dress- m.c.s.
fuck i know you saw it. the thing beneath the pillow and the sheet. you don't wanna say but you see me there underneath. you think it's kinda funny
the other you teases. makes fun. just messes, fucks with me. You're not upset yet his name you jest. i want to build that brick wall but i know i'll let you go. i'm not montresor. i can let go. i'm not in a vengeful mood anyway.
just think, if only we talked. made contact. even had a third thursday of every month, we'd be able to whine and listen and be the shoulders. |
| 73 hit(s) |
(1 comments) |
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Shut the fuck up |
May 8th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Nugget- Cake
I'll_____ for you.
Learn to buck up
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| 64 hit(s) |
(0 comments) |
oh yes.
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